Hi there, hope everyone is as well as possible today. I apologise in advance but I'm feeling really low and frustrated today and I can't pinpoint exactly why. The pain is back again, it came on last night while I was at work and it has kept me awake most of the night. I'm back at work today and have a really long day ahead which I am struggling to face but I couldn't take more time off as I have already had so much off recently. My boss is really great and sympathetic about my condition but the wider company take a very strict stance on absences and I have already had to go through the absence management procedures. I just feel like crying today.
I'm also really frustrated by the lack of communication I have had with my doctors. I went back to my consultant in October because my periods hadn't returned after four months of finishing my prostap injections and also because, inspite of the injections, I was still experiencing the same pain I had been before the laparoscopy and laser surgery I had the previous January. He told me that I couldn't still be in pain and that it must be another kind! I couldn't believe he said that as I had told him that all of my symptoms were exactly the same but still he refused to believe me. He reluctantly agreed to send me for a scan to check for ovarian cysts and then discharged me!
I left that appointment in tears feeling that I had just been completely disregarded. My husband as usual was there to support me but even he was at a loss. I went for the scan and got a very brief letter afterwards telling me there were no ovarian cysts but I was still in enormous pain. We then had an appointment at the fertility clinic in February where they told me that the scan showed that my ovaries were very small as a result of the injections and then did various tests but even though I have chased them up twice I still haven't heard anything back from them about what our next steps will be.
Amongst all of this I have had 3 day 21 progesterone tests which have shown that I am not ovulating. The first test they phoned me with the results but the second one I had to chase up myself, only to be told when I phoned that no I wasn't ovulating and that I had been referred back to gynaecology who had just told me that I shouldn't still be in pain and discharged me! I feel like I am chasing and chasing and just getting passed from pillar to post with no real answers or explanations. I'm sorry to rant like this but I just feel so low with it all. I know my husband is fantastic with it all but I just hate laying it on him all the time. I hate him to think that I am so needy and down all the time. Sorry girls!