Okay just some personal details!
Weight 224 lbs
Height 5ft 6
Bust 38 inc
Waist 37 inc
Hips 42 inc
Diet - nothing at the moment
My regime of eating consists of NEVER eating breakfast, lunch about 2pm big meal
Dinner - big meal snack snack snack supper about 11pm
Diets i''ve tried lipotrim, herbal life, paleo diet,
exercise i've tried, going to the gym, signing up to a fitness group £15 a week, leisure centre,
My name is Maria, and I can't stick to anything
As you can see from the above, I have been dieting since I can remember.
The longest I have ever stuck to a diet/excercise regime is 3 weeks, the most i've lost is a stone.
I am 21 (welll 21 next week)
I used to be a size 14 when I was 18 and then in the last 3 years i've just shot up to this size.
I have PCOS (Polistic ovarian syndrome I think its called ) and the doctor said that losing weight is harder for me.
I also have diabetes in my family my birth mum had it and so did her mum.
Recently Ive been bullyed about my weight by an unknown number sending me messages about being fat etc and it's really knocked me down. I have a really low self esteem anyway so to get these texts was pretty hard for me as I think it would be for anyone.
I found this couch to 5k on the inhs thing and decided to give it ago, i mean its free, i live in buxon so i literally walk outside my house and can run and I like the outdoors.
When I was 15, this care home I lived in had a sports teacher, he wasn;t the nicest of people but he always motivated me. For 3 months in our pe sessions we had cross country running on our table. Well i wasn't happy at all and for the first 2 months I was grumpy out of breath and usually got in trouble for being in trouble. Then i remember one session some of the other children were misbehaving and for some reason I just felt the urge to be a little teachers pet and run, the more he praised me the more I found it enjoyable, I ended up putting my headphones on and the run was fantastic, I remember feeling out of breath but not in a painful way more exhilerating. It was one of the best feelings ever. And I don't know it just suddenly happened, I started jogging more and It was amazing.
(Sorry I'm babbling)
Anyway today my 1st run, feels 100 million times worse than i can remember it being. The first 60 sec run and I instantly got a stitch under my right boob. and then when i started running although the stitch stopped hurting i was still in so much pain. Out of breath and grumpy I lasted 21 minutes and then went home. I managed to run for about 4 of the 60 seconds and I feel so ashamed, I don;t feel proud of myself I feel embarrassed. I mean i know I weigh 6 more stone than i did when i was younger but jeeez it was actually horrible.
I just want to be able to go for a run and really enjoy it and keep running without feeling like my chest is going to explode and I'm going to die. I know im exaggerating right now but hey ho
I'm going to go have a nice warm shower and try and stop feeling sorry for myself. I just would love to be a size 14 again, for my bmi not say i'm severly obesed and not to be bulied anymore.
The picture I've attached is me today, after my 1st run not looking very happy or attractive