Today's run really didn't go well. On Monday it was frosty, so I put on my base layer with a T-shirt over the top. Then just as I was about the leave I realised it was raining so threw on my jacket, and as I was setting off about 30 minutes earlier than usual, my hi-viz vest too. So I ended up wearing 4 layers. As I left, I knew I'd probably overheat, but decided I could take layers off as I went.
So I set off and had my first attempt at the stepping stones podcast. I found it really difficult and wasn't enjoying it at all. As I ran along the busy-ish country road I usual use, I got to a section where the street lights ended, the trees become overgrown and the frequent traffic disappeared. As I was out earlier than usual, the sun hadnt started coming up yet, and for whatever reason I started to freak myself out. I'd already been struggling with the podcast and my thighs not wanting to move properly, and this was almost the final straw. I decided to turn round as I didnt want to go any further without being able to see around me, and turned my ipod off. And, the only good thing to come out of it was that I ran back up that hill faster than I've ever done it before! I felt like I was in a horror film. The rain dripping off the leaves was making a rustling noise, and although it was all in my head I'd had enough.
So I aborted the run and came back home. I'd done about 3k in total. I'm a little disappointed in the fact that I havent got that exhausted feeling I usually have, however I'm still pleased I got out there and did something. Every little counts right?!
I also had time to think about what this programme's done for me - not only being able to run, but the fact I'm sleeping better, waking at 6am with no alarm and I was losing weight (until I went on holiday). So, I'm not feeling dejected, I went out there and tried my best, but it just wasnt my day today. But I'll definitely be giving it another go on Thursday.