Well, I'd had a bad week. Hectic at work, evening events 3 nights (work related) and a headache since Tuesday. I put that down to the weather, eating badly due to the silly hours and silly hours working.
However, I promised myself I was going to do my first Parkrun.
This morning I really didn't want to do it. I took tablets for my headache. I did everything really slowly. I kept making excuses.
But somehow I found myself in my car driving towards the park with a barcode in my pocket. I was really nervous but I made myself go up to the various people in hi-vis tops and they were really nice and welcoming and explained how it works.
I hadn't taken my ipod and headphones for some reason, so this was my first run without Laura. Ok, so I should have moved away from Week 9 by now but I haven't, in fact I've been listening to it for all my runs. But that was the hardest bit as I was aware I wasn't pacing myself properly and felt quite tired quite early. I needed to find my own pace again and for some reason the 'Julie' song popped into my head. Probably as it's the one I've heard the most as it was in week 8 & 9. Unfortunately (?) I couldn't remember all the words or even the music, just the chorusy 'I don't really care' or whatever the words are which got changed in my head to 'I am going to finish, yes I really really am'. After the first of the two loops I realised I needed the loo so those word imaginatively changed to 'I don't need the loo'.
Anyway, it worked and after a rubbish week I found myself sprinting to the end, racing two other women to the joy of everyone who'd already finished and I clocked my best ever time of 28.45. So maybe I did need to go faster than usual at the start. And maybe I am a runner now. And maybe that 'Julie' song is now my running anthem.