Yesterday's run

[ejvcruns]

It's getting harder and slower :-(. I took an extra rest day but I felt mojoless and walked some of the run sections. 3 sets of 10 squats included which my legs feel today though. I estimate about 25 mins running. I tried running instead of shuffling along once and almost passed out! But I won't give in to gremlins.

[Polly2810 Graduate]

At Least you are getting out there!! Respect!

[ejvcruns Graduate in reply to Polly2810]

Thanks Polly!

[Oldfloss Administrator Graduate]

Phew.. it sounds tiring..be kind yourself...

You are doing amazingly, and with all that is happening...you still got out there. Take care of you, please.....I know the runs may help in some ways, but maybe just taking a slow walk would be okay until you are back home

Big hug x

[ejvcruns Graduate in reply to Oldfloss]

Thanks Oldfloss. I'm taking walks too. But I guess I feel if I do that I'll be losing something that's very important to me. Everything is so complicated when it comes to emotions, right? I appreciate your support.

[Oldfloss Administrator Graduate in reply to ejvcruns]

I do understand.. when I cannot run... horrid!

All the emotion is so hard.. when we had to take my Mum to her care home, beautiful though it was.. it was so, so hard. I wish I had, had running then

Just be brave..hold on to the happy memories and know that nothing as strong as love ever, ever disappears xx

[linda9389 Graduate in reply to Oldfloss]

Wonderful words Oldfloss . Brought tears to my eyes. A really dear friend's mum is fading fast and I have been sad all day - tomorrow your lovely words will be winging their way to her. Thank you.

[Hidden]

Is it the altitude or climate or difficult circumstances (or a combination of all 3) that are causing you problems do you think? It is only a short time since you graduated and maybe, given all of the above you should just take it easy for a few weeks and consolidate the brilliant progress you have made so far.. Post graduation is tricky imho. It's not a race you know!

[ejvcruns Graduate in reply to Hidden]

You know I think it is the mental/emotional stuff. The running is hard, but I know if I had my "spark" I could do it. It's pretty hard when your mother doesn't know who you are at all. It's like all the history we have together is vanishing. We will be moving her to a home a few weeks after I leave. Anyway I guess I hoped that I could leave it all behind when I run, but it's creeping up on me anyway.

[Hidden in reply to ejvcruns]

Well of course it is ejvcruns. Somethings are just too big to be left at the start line. Be gentle with yourself. Such a horrible illness. Sending virtual hug

[Fishypieface Graduate]

I don't think I fully understand what it is you are doing, but to keep going at anything for nearly an hour is a BIG ask (in my book anyway). I think my mojo would have walked home when I wasn't looking. 30 mins feels like 3 hours to me!! It sounds tough and hard work too, good on you for trying something new. Aren't you doing all this at altitude at the mo? Maybe a small but simple 'see where you get to' jogette would give you a bit of a breather next time? Tomorrow is another day (so I've learnt....at last.....the hard way!!) Good luck

[ejvcruns Graduate in reply to Fishypieface]

Thanks. I'm really not trying to be crazy, I'm just trying to go slow and steady! This week was a 5 min walk, 10 min run, a set of squats, then three 7 min runs separated by 2 min of stretching. A total run time of 31 minutes. And I went *slow*! I thought maybe I could work back up to 30 mins of continuous running at altitude, since I'm here for a month. But it's a whole different ballgame up here.

[Fishypieface Graduate in reply to ejvcruns]

I probably would have given up by now... blaming altitude for the impossibleness (?!) of any kind of run! Well done you for doing all of that and keeping on going. I think you deserve an extra badge 'tough graduate' for toughing it out up there.

[Hidden]

You're getting out there to a regular programme. Sometimes you'll do the big distance, sometimes not, but every time you're out there. Respect!

[ejvcruns Graduate in reply to Hidden]

Thanks!

[Mimirossi Graduate]

You are doing so well ejvcruns ! Just do whatever you can and don't push yourself! You are under incredible stress at the moment. Thinking of you at this really hard time.