I started all this in May but I've never escaped the confines of my garden. I just haven't had the courage to get out in public. I've always been like this, but after 40 odd years of it, I am sick of holding myself back and I was determined to try a) to run and b) to get over myself.
So at last, today, many weeks down the line and with the aid of a new top to cover my lumps and bumps, I finally summoned the courage to get out at 6.30am (when hopefully everyone else would still be in bed) and see what it's like to run more than 80 foot without having to negotiate a magnolia. Plus it would be a bonus not to have the cat lying in my path, tramping on hidden slugs or snails, or my daughter pulling exploding faces out the window.
Within a minute I'd met a another runner (also build for comfort) who had the same idea about getting out early & we smiled knowingly at each other. The warm up walk took me neatly to my local rec, a football pitch and a cricket field linked together and rather thoughtfully they'd mown the grass, they knew I was coming, obvs.
I had got myself all worked up on the way, nerves and running = palpitations! My heart was fluttering and I couldn't ease in, I set off too fast, the ground was lumpy and there were two dog walkers on the horizon. I wanted to run home. So then I spent the first lap muttering every swear I know (except for the really bad one) which helped me stumble through. Then a crazy lady (that made 2 of us) doing her morning walk joined me briefly, arms in the air shouting to the world, she was cheering me on. After the initial shock (why is this happening to me at 6.45am??!) I was really grateful for her support, although I did run in the opposite direction from then on.
It was hard, I didn't think I would make it, was it nerves or maybe my garden running hasn't been that realistic after all? Pink got me through the last 5 minutes which we mentally V signed together, after all these weeks, I was going to bloody well finish.
On my warm down I finally appreciated what a beautiful, still, clear morning it is today. It felt so amazing to be out and alive, enjoying the quiet world before anyone else surfaced for the day (before c25k I loved a lie-in). That's just one of the many extra bonuses about running that I never considered before I started this journey. I may be incredibly slow, I may never reach 5km in 30 mins. I may look a right sight in my running gear, but I don't care. I love what it has done to me, I love how we all do it differently.
Happy Saturday everyone! xxx