Ok came home from work thought get this done ..... Stressed out, tired .... Hoping that the law works as someone sent a funeral car/limousine to my house yesterday with just lillies in the back asking for me... Neighbour said it knocked and waited from approx 12pm to 1:25pm I was in work thankfully or I may have lost the plot... Hoping police can prove its the ex but he's always one step ahead of me...
So I went out I thought I'm going to do this, did the warm up walk then started the 20 minutes within 5 minutes had to stop head pounding, headache really bad ... Thought that's it I can't do it today
Sat on a bench and cried and said to myself if you don't do this he wins, do it for you to prove he is not breaking you and I did a 2 minute brisk walk and OMG I did it, the lady 2 minutes were hard as I think by then I realised I'm doing it and for some reason felt overawed by it all or it was a culmination of stress, relief and the knowing I was going to do that 20 minutes ....
Probably going to have 2 rest days as mentally I'm drained, not had a day off for 2 weeks
But OMG I did it
Thank you everyone for the support
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heledw
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OMG did I read that 1st bit right??
Hats off to you for turning that into such a positive for you well done doesn't seem adequate really
Yes you did read it right.... Although I pleased it did 20 minutes, I just feel like I'm battling so many demons I'm not able to focus 100% on the run..... I'm trying so hard thou
Blimey what a horrible thing to do. But a massive well done to you for going out there and doing that run! You are a very determined person, and that will always win.
Good for you for persevering. I was wondering how you are but couldn't remember your name. It's been a long w/e and I am all out of wisdom but for some reason I keep thinking of my favourite Oscar Wilde (I think) quote: the best revenge is a life lived well. (one foot in front of the other)
You're clearly a very strong person Helen and I really admire your courage. There's obviously a lot going on in your life but your decision to run is to be applauded especially after such a horrible event. The run you've just done is THE biggie of the whole programme and you've conquered it! A huge well done to you and enjoy your rest days.
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