Ok came home from work thought get this done ..... Stressed out, tired .... Hoping that the law works as someone sent a funeral car/limousine to my house yesterday with just lillies in the back asking for me... Neighbour said it knocked and waited from approx 12pm to 1:25pm I was in work thankfully or I may have lost the plot... Hoping police can prove its the ex but he's always one step ahead of me...
So I went out I thought I'm going to do this, did the warm up walk then started the 20 minutes within 5 minutes had to stop head pounding, headache really bad ... Thought that's it I can't do it today
Sat on a bench and cried and said to myself if you don't do this he wins, do it for you to prove he is not breaking you and I did a 2 minute brisk walk and OMG I did it, the lady 2 minutes were hard as I think by then I realised I'm doing it and for some reason felt overawed by it all or it was a culmination of stress, relief and the knowing I was going to do that 20 minutes ....
Probably going to have 2 rest days as mentally I'm drained, not had a day off for 2 weeks
But OMG I did it
Thank you everyone for the support