I think I DO understand more...
I asked when I began this journey.. when do you GET to the stage where you ENJOY running... and got various answers from different people. Tonight I went out in a thunderstorm..absolutely errr urinating it down ( ok so i DID think of another word) .. thunder and lightning....
it was elemental.. powerful....
pitch black though it was early evening , the rain falling so hard it was running in rivers down the street...
warm, summer rain... mmmm every so often a flash of lightning...a rumble of thunder
wonderful...
but having pulled a calf muscle last week.. and then run TOO soon... and aggravated it by not stopping as any normal person would do when 30 secs into first run it was sore.. insisting on carrying on to the finish.. so i left it a week this time... but in the intervening period.. i DID buy new , proper running shoes..and i was acheing to try them out.. ( in between just acheing) and it is with a HEAVY heart I have to say, yes , J J you WERE right, i should have done it got the gait analysis before now and bought proper running shoes.... yadda yadda...
OK to return to the point in hand.. so this time I strapped up my calf muscle.. TIGHT.. put on the new shoes..and headed off out into the warm almost tropical downpour...
I understand WHY people become addicted.. the sense of ' satisfaction' after i was able to complete was so intense.. the sense of loss when i couldnt get out there for a week..wanting to try out new shoes...so deep...
its strange, i've trained in gyms for many years.. and i do understand the ' good feeling' after exercise, but the intensity one feels after a 'good run' is really quite different, the sense of ' having overcome odds' quite peculiarly stronger than that id experience in the gym environment ( i guess the ' bad ' run knocks you down so much more too) i DO begin to understand why people become so addicted to it...
Aye , but here's the rub ( as Shakespeare might have said if he jogged) I still don't enjoy the physical process of running yet. Achievement of having run yes, experiencing a tropical downpour.. yes bring it on..(Think there is a possibilty of being a ' running stormchaser' ?) but i guess im still learning, still increasing my lung/stamina/muscle capacity for new exercise... so i await the ' pleasure in running' still. For fleeting minutes/seconds at a time.. i can see.. when you are there.. the legs are moving reasonably ok, you are in the middle of the countryside.. and just watching the world go by... maybe, it will get there...
but for now, there is just the challenge of the next run... get to the end of it...prove it to yourself....
So to those who may read this starting out.... carry on.. you CAN do it...