Well when I started off this week I had major reservations. Run one was a pleasant surprise as thought I would be running the 8 mins straight away, but nope 5 shall be the number and the number shall be 5 ...... Run 2 and I got overconfident choosing a route I usually walk my dogs, a section of it being uphill, I did it, but was left thinking, 'wow that left me a bit red, now how the hell am i going to do the next 20 min run?'.
Last night I got to thinking about today's run and for some reason I started to get quite anxious as the thought of failure crept in. What if I just wasn't ready to run for so long? What if my hay fever conspired to bugger up my breathing and stop me in my tracks? This is a big leap from 8 mins, what do I do if it all goes horribly wrong? Morning came and anxiousness really kicked in. I had organised to do something nice today in mini-celebration and felt that if I didn't do the 20 mins I wouldn't feel right doing anything much, but moping lol.
The run: I had been so wound up I just needed to get out there and do it; even the 5 min warm up dragged, but eventually Laura counted me in and off I went nice and easy focusing on my pace and breathing and waiting to roll my eyes at sigh when the 'baby I'm king' rap track assaulted my ears ..... Laura tells me I have done 5 mins ..... then 10, I turn back on my route now and again breathing through my mouth for ease and every so often changing pace up or down depending on what my body wanted. 15 mins gone just 5 to go and am not begging for the run to cease, but I'm feeling a little fatigued..... 2 mins to go and I realise my run will halt right by a narrow boat full of people I passed on the way, so disappointed as wanted to through my arms in the air in jubilation at the end, but of course that would have looked weird. Run over, cool down walk now and I give a wry smile as I head for home, hot, sweaty a little tired, but glowing inside.
I know I know, it's only the end of week 5 and I still have to graduate, but this was a little victory and i deserve nice eats at the pub and maybe even a few beers later .... well certainly the meal lol.
So week 6 here I come. do i count as a runner yet?