A strange sort of day......

Not much motivation today...cancelled my job seekers allowance and applied for sickness benefit as I now have a sick note from my Dr. He prescribed 20 mg Citalopram and wants to see me every 2 weeks, still pondering on taking the medication, I know some would say just do it to get better but a couple of things happening in the next fortnight I was hoping to complete and if I get side affects (I hear initially it can get a bit worse) I won't be able to. My friend is 50 and I would normally not go to the celebrations but promised myself I would, I know my health is more important and I will ponder over taking the tablets a little longer, maybe speak to the therapist about it on Wednesday..

My daughters partner who is a workaholic got sick at the weekend (he is never ill) so I supported her in that and went with her to the hospital, a kidney infection is what it seems to be, he had an injection felt better but today is off work not well..I was happy to support my daughter in this she has done so much for me, I'm lucky to have her, and somehow it took my mind off my anxieties and lows, I wanted to help him he is such a nice guy, his dad died of prostate cancer a year ago so we were a little worried for him, hope he recovers quickly and all goes well there.

Didn't go for my first visit to the voluntary work they were fine about it as the manager is on holiday anyway so they said better to start next week...

Over a month now to when I gave up my job due to anxiety, thinking i was going to rest for two weeks and then back into a job was definitely a bit too much to expect , I guess you have to give it time, it doesn't help that I am impatient ....each day I wake I expect to be back to being me ....I remain optimistic that it will happen but a little scared about how far away that is..

I hope you are all at least having an ok day, my best wishes to you

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Just give yourself some time and dont be hard on yourself............

Catch you later

Ker xx

[Psychgrad]

Like anne64 said don't be hard on yourself, getting back to a good place can take time but you will get there. You've taken a real positive step in going onto sickness benefit, it will ease the pressure off of getting a job. I am on 20mg of citalopram and it has really helped me, to be honest I didn't feel that much worse initially I think it affects people differently but it is your choice whether to use it or not. I hope you feel better soon xx

[Son70]

Hi I have been on citalopram for 10 years and am currently reducing with a view to coming off . They are horrendous to come off an the side effects are awful. I wish I had never gone down the route of anti d for my anxiety and depression . I am only speaking for myself and would never tell anyone what they should or shouldn't do but in my option it has stopped working and made my anxiety worse over the years . Please consider all the facts before taking as GPS give them out like smarties and have no glue how people struggle to come off them . Stay strong and positive you will get where you want to be just dnt be hard on your self . Good luck

Sonia

[bonkerswoman]

Trouble is that we all react differently to tabs. I took Citalopram for 4 weeks and felt much happier within 14 days. But then I started feeling nauseous and it put me off my food. Well, I love my grub, so had to come off. (I had lost weight though, so shame really). The nausea lasted a few weeks after coming off, but it's gone now. There's no easy answer, is there? I know this though - there is a huge recovery difference between people who fight and people who give up, and you aren't giving up. You will feel yourself again because you will make it happen. In the meantime, I hope you will be very nice to yourself and realise that your daughter is supportive because you deserve her to be. Reasons To Be Cheerful Part 1. xx

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Thank you for all your kind comments it is really helpful to hear

Thank you xx

[eta55]

Hi, it may be worth trying the AD tablets, have you ever tried them before? You need to give yourself time to recover, I have just gone back to work on a phased return after 12 weeks!

Can't say it was easy but I've done the first day.

Can we claim sickness benefit if we give up our job voluntarily or job seekers? It would be great to know where to go for advice.

Hope all goes well for you x

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Hi

Thanks

I have a link on one of my blogs about claiming, I was informed about it by Citizens advice helpline..

You can claim but getting a bit of advice about it helps ...I did initially put a claim in for job seekers allowance but now I've been to my Dr I've put a claim in for sickness benefit as he has provided me with a sick note...

I had AD tabs quite a number of years ago it was hard coming off them so avoiding it really for now...

Feeling a little fuzzy headed today so sorry for the short message

Xxx

[eta55 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you it's fine, hope you feel a little brighter later x