Tired of this.

[destinymichelle]

So, my fiancé is starting his new job tonight and I’m so proud and excited, but my anxiety is getting the best of me. He’s the only one who can handle me and help me out. He will be gone from 10pm until 7am am and I just feel so sick even thinking about it. What if something serious happens? How am I supposed to calm down when I won’t even be able to talk to him. I’m so scared and I want to cry my eyes out just thinking about him leaving me tonight and my anxiety is already getting to me... I know it’s gonna mess me up when he leaves and I’m scared that I cant handle it... I’m so tired of feeling this way. I don’t want to die..

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I can identify with anxiety but there’s no way I can handle it on my own without professional help. You say there is a free mental health clinic available to you. Might it be in your own best interests to use it? I understand the fear about asking for help, but is your continued suffering easier than going for that help? Please take what I say with a grain of salt, I honestly don’t know what you “should” do. I just am so sorry you struggle so much with your anxiety.

[destinymichelle in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Yes, I definitely can use it. It’s just been so difficult for me to get myself to go. I’m going to have to just stick through it and do it so that I can start to feel better. Thank you! ❤️

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to destinymichelle]

Advocating for my own mental health has worked for me. Go for it. You can do it! We’ve survived worse things than walking into a clinic.

[destinymichelle in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

You’ve got that right! Thank you for the encouragement. ❤️ I’m tired of feeling like I’m gonna die and like I can’t be alone.

[LovePurple2 in reply to destinymichelle]

I have anxiety too & the same feeling something is going to happen to me. Are you ok once you get into bed at night & maybe listen to a radio or your cell phone with some earbuds? My husband was gone 36 hours & just got home this evening & I was home with our 2 dogs yesterday 24 hours & 12 today without him & I had to stay calm even though I hated him being gone. We are here for you & certainly understand what you are feeling. The night will go fast & he will be home soon. You'll be ok & take some deep breaths! Prayers!!❤️🙏🙌🙏

[destinymichelle in reply to LovePurple2]

He just left and I’ve cried at least 3 times in the last few hours. It’s been so hard and I feel like I’m not strong enough to handle this... I just need him the most right now but I’m trying my best to stay calm and hoping the night will be fast and I will be fine ❤️ So sorry to hear that you’re going through the same thing. We are strong and we can get through this. God bless

[LovePurple2 in reply to destinymichelle]

It's ok to cry & I do the same when my husband leaves for work during the day. I then know I have to step up & be the strong one & take care of our 2 dogs & the home & pray a lot to God! I always feel better when it is time for bed & I can relax & not worry! You'll be ok & I'll say a prayer that God watches over you tonight & everyday! Think positive & listen to your radio if you have one! God Bless!❤️🙏🙌

[destinymichelle in reply to LovePurple2]

You are such a blessing. Thank you so much 💜 I’ll be praying for you as well.

[hardworker190]

Your not dying though, I feel the same way and have felt that way for 6 years... I haven’t died yet so the past few weeks I have been watching teachers and pastors teach on the mind and how to overcome... your not gonna die if you were going to die you would of had died already you literally got to tell your self day and night that your not going to die every single day all day until you being to believe remember it takes 21 days

[destinymichelle in reply to hardworker190]

Thank you so much. I’m trying to realize that hard times are nothing more than hard times. My anxiety is something that I’m going to have to live with, but I can’t let it control me. I’m sorry, but 21 days? What do you mean? Also, I am sorry that you have been suffering for so long. I hope that you can find some relief 💞

[sunandbutterfly in reply to destinymichelle]

How was the first night?

Know that you are not alone. Especially when I was pregnant I would cry when my husband left for work.

Before I got married I would read and journal quite often before bed. I would also listen to music or a radio drama called Adventures in Odyssey. Maybe one of these would be helpful to you?

I definitely suggest that you go to the free clinic that is available to you. Is that somethingthat your boyfriend can encourage you to do or help you get to?

[destinymichelle in reply to sunandbutterfly]

It was okay. I fell asleep around 2 am and woke up at 6 am and waited until 7 am for him to come home. I was calm today and wasn’t thinking about it as much, but now once again I feel like crying my eyes out.

[sunandbutterfly in reply to destinymichelle]

I am glad that things went pretty well today. I hope you are able to get the help you need.

[destinymichelle in reply to sunandbutterfly]

He can help me and encourage me. It takes awhile so we will probably have to do it on one of his off days.

[hardworker190 in reply to destinymichelle]

You don’t have to live with anxiety that’s a lie

[Blindmagg]

I totally feel you on this. My fiancé goes to school full time right then we are moving to Phoenix, Az all the way from Alabama and he will be working a full time job out there. I was put on Celexa to help deal with the severe anxiety and depression. It’s only been two weeks but I’m praying this will be a life saver for me. Meditation helps me get through really tough anxiety as well. I have the Calm app and it’s very soothing. You also need to remind yourself that you are very strong, resilient, and capable of anything. And remind yourself that you are safe. Reading books and listening to podcasts are also helpful to me.. Just hang in there girl.. You got this and we are all here for support❤️💕

[destinymichelle in reply to Blindmagg]

Wow, that sounds stressful. I hope that the meds will be a blessing for you! ❤️ I usually just lay here and relax with our fur babies. I’ll read or listen to music or watch something that I enjoy.

[Hidden]

Your not alone .. we are all here for you until your fiancé is home ... I would go to bed and watch something on TV .. read, or talk to us until you fall asleep and your fiancés home again at 7 am ... 🍀

[destinymichelle in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so so much 💜💜💜