i have just stumbled upon this site through searching depression/ post traumatic anxiety . I dont really know what to say. i experienced a traumatic event last december (sexual and mental abuse/blackmail from somebody i trusted-colleague/friend) and ever since i cant get my feelings or worries in order. i constantly remind myself of the event and i am frightened about what is going to happen in the future if we come in to contact. i initially went the police, but dropped the case as i was frightened. thankfully work sacked this individual.
At times i just want the ground to swallow me up. one thing i do know is that i feel so much more anxiety than ever before. theres days where i am fine, go to work and get on with life then theres days like today where i cant leave the house as i feel so stressed and low. and i just dont want to communicate with anybody. i drink more, seem to be more argumentative and im getting in to trouble with work due to my absences and lack of participation. i seem to experience shortness of breath and my chest hurts. i experience headaches, and feel paranoid. i just feel like im in a vicious cycle and i cant get out.