Really sorry i have not been about guys either to help listen or anything really ..
As some of you may remember my partner is my life support ,
well just lately he has let me down big time i found out that he had lied to me a few years ago , dont get me wrong it was nothing bad but it was a lie all the same and i cant deal with it .
sadly this is not the first tme but you move on but i am not sure that i can any more i dont know what to and what not to believe ,
he went home last week to his place and i told him i needd to sort things out i suffer really bad aniexty when he is not here as it is now i doubt any thing he says and tells me ,
however he came rushing back as he thought i had taken my life or at least tried to ,
he says he is sorry and will do anything he can to sessure me i dont knwo what if anything he can do , i told him from the start of our relationship 5 yrs ago i could cope with any thing except lieing ,, now i just dont know where to go or what to do ,
i have started self harming again in quite a big way in order to summon up some feelings
gosh sorry i feel i am going on and dont feel i have a right to post as not been about