Just had a call from the agency I registered with, they had a job for me until June/July possibly to permanent. I turned it down.
I feel so so bad turning work down but I was too afraid it would be too much for me. It kinda sounded like it may be. I am scared to take chances on it in case I let them down or feel bad again. How can I be turning work down after working all my life it's madness, I'm so afraid I would end up feeling bad again, but just don't know. If I had said yes I guess I would have worried about it all weekend as I would have to start on Monday. Although now I feel bad refusing work.
It sounded like a very interesting job, but I think quite full on too......will I ever feel confident again to say yes .....