I've started thinking very irrationally today and i think it's got something to do with the fact that me and the misses or going on holiday tomorrow. I've just started having my usual negative thought patterns and fears whizzing around my head. Part of me wants to cancel and just stay in my room where i'm safe, but i can't bear to tell her that.
Being away for a week should be exciting, so why am i feeling like this? I just feel something terrible is going to happen and that i'm not in control of any of it. arghhhhhhhhhh I hate this feeling. I just want to be me again for more than a day or two at a time, i want my life back. Sorry for ranting xxx