I really don't know what to do.. I feel such a mess.. I am really struggling with work.. I really don't like it and don't want to be there.. I'm suffering bad depression and anxiety and have had alot of thoughts about ending my life lately.. I don't have much responsibility in my life however I still feel I can't cope! It makes me feel like I'm a pathetic excuse of a human being and a waste of space. I feel like I have no purpose and that I'm no good to anyone. I've not been going to work and I haven't told my partner as I'm embarrassed and feel weak! Money is getting lower and I've not heard from jobs I've applied for. I just want a break from work but only get ssp! Is there any financial help I can get until I feel better?