Panic!

[Michaelalou]

I really don't know what to do.. I feel such a mess.. I am really struggling with work.. I really don't like it and don't want to be there.. I'm suffering bad depression and anxiety and have had alot of thoughts about ending my life lately.. I don't have much responsibility in my life however I still feel I can't cope! It makes me feel like I'm a pathetic excuse of a human being and a waste of space. I feel like I have no purpose and that I'm no good to anyone. I've not been going to work and I haven't told my partner as I'm embarrassed and feel weak! Money is getting lower and I've not heard from jobs I've applied for. I just want a break from work but only get ssp! Is there any financial help I can get until I feel better?

[Kaitlin16]

You're not alone! I hate being at work. I get myself so worked up that I convince myself I have to go home and once I get home I instantly feel better. But then I get worried that I'm missing out on money and what do my bosses think of me always being "sick"? I am on medication to help with my everyday anxieties that I'm dealing with and I hope once I find the right mixture that I can go back to work without worry. I know I will suffer with anxiety and maybe depression my whole life (it runs in the family) but I do have hope that one day soon I can have it under control and get off the meds. I also don't like to get into too much detail with my friends and family about my condition for the fear of being judged and thought less of. But you should find someone to talk to like a therapist. Best wishes!

[SammieXo in reply to Kaitlin16]

Hey I understand how you feel its awful isnt it? Wish there was a magic cure

[Kaitlin16 in reply to SammieXo]

Yes I do wish there was a magic cure! But the crazy thing is that it's our minds playing these awful tricks with us telling our bodies to react in these ways. I know to us sufferers it feels very real and that possibly we could actually be going through other real health issues. It's important to find something that works for you. I'm still not there yet and I've been going through this for months.

[Michaelalou in reply to Kaitlin16]

Hey.. thanks for the reply.. I'm having a better day today..been signed off on the sick for a week and got myself a credit card to keep me going financially.. not ideal but whatever it takes to cope and reduce the worry of money.. looking for new jobs.. fingers crossed I'll get out of the job I'm in. What do you do for work? X

[Kaitlin16 in reply to Michaelalou]

I'm a waitress. So the social part of it gets me really worked up. And it doesn't help that I hate my managers. The job itself is also super stressful. I make good money though so I don't necessarily want to leave but I just want to calm down enough not to worry about it because I never did before.

[Michaelalou in reply to Kaitlin16]

Wow a waitress.. I can imagine that would be extremely busy, alot of pressure, loud and demanding.. what is different now to when you first started for you feel this way? X

[Krcrox in reply to Kaitlin16]

Katlin - I tell everyone that I have anxiety - I am not ashamed of it- and none of us ever should be! It is no different from having diabetes, arthritis, a broken leg, colitis or any other disease! The best way to break the stigma is to tell tell tell!!!

[SammieXo]

I know.how you feel my anxiety is bad and ive took today off because of it ! But i feel even worse now ...

[Michaelalou in reply to SammieXo]

What do you do for work sammie?

[SammieXo in reply to Michaelalou]

My job is working with circuit boards, I am glad its full time as Ive always worked part time because of my anxiety. Its pretty tiring though and a struggle to get through the day

[Krcrox]

Hi - I know exactly how you feel. I struggle with anxiety and work daily. I know it's hard - but you can get through this! I am sure you have heard this many times before, but, here goes.....Don't run from the anxiety, don't flee, you are giving the anxiety all the power when you run. As hard as it is - stay - breathe - breathe - breathe - deep stomach breaths - remind yourself that you have made it through the day at work before - try to focus on the days that you went the whole day through. You will feel jittery, jumpy, out of sorts and uncomfortable - yes you will...BUT....YOU CAN DO THIS!! Even if you stay 1 hour longer than yesterday, tomorrow stay one hour longer than today....every day just stay a little longer. Keep applying for jobs - try not to focus on how much you dislike this one -find something good about it - whether it's the location, the desk, the place you can go for lunch, the coffee machine or even just that the building is pretty and focus on that. That should help you get through each day a little easier.

[Michaelalou in reply to Krcrox]

You know what.. the place I work is a really good place to work and the staff are well looked after.. it's just me, I am my own worst enermy.. I just want to hide away all the time as it's easier than facing up to all the other feeling and thoughts when I'm around people.. I worry, I stress, I get nervous, I sweat, I feel awkward, conversation can be too much effort, I'm paranoid how I come across, I wonder if I'm liked or disliked... it goes on and the constant battle completely exhausts and drains me. Work is a big challenge for me and I have to fully commit myself to it or else I struggle... however when I fully commit my personal life is non existing and that makes me feel low! I don't know.. what do you do for a job out of interest?

[SammieXo in reply to Michaelalou]

This is me. I am exactly the same ! X

[Michaelalou in reply to SammieXo]

Wow.. so I'm not the only one! Your job sounds pretty cool sammie.. I can imagine it's tiring as your faces with challengesome everyday of getting through it! Hey thanks for following me BTW

[Suchis in reply to Michaelalou]

Hi

I lost my job recently.this health anxiety made my life worst.i was always going out , not at my desk, always want run from that place.its hell.now I m looking for new jobs

[Michaelalou in reply to Suchis]

Hey suchis. What job was it that you was doing? I'm very close to losing my job.. I have had so much time off work and nearly a year later I'm still in probation due to numerous extensions.. currently looking for a new job now as I know I'm time is up.. it's stressful knowing what to go into though as I fear the same thing will happen again!

[Suchis in reply to Michaelalou]

Hi Michaelalou,

I am it professional doing coding for web sites.

Even I m afraid for new job as I feel all this will be repeating again

[Michaelalou in reply to Suchis]

That sounds quite cool.. I thought about working from home however I'm not sure there is much around that is permanent and constant income.