Panic Mode....

Today at work I had a massive panic attack...which is typical considering I've actually had a really good morning and felt more like my old self....but just after I came back from lunch I was sitting at my desk and i thought "oh my I'm gonna pass out"

I shouted for my manager by which time my heart was pounding out my chest...feel a bit embarrassed now cause I was shouting for her to help me right smack dab in the middle of my work...lasted around 10 mins then subsided...I only calmed when I felt pins and needles in my hands and I knew for definite it was a panic attack.

I've had enough if being fobbed off at the doctors...I've had enough of feeling like this and just can't see a way out....i had convinced myself that by this time this year is be starting to feel better well I've gone back about 100 steps...in fact I think I'm worse now then I was when I first got anxiety....I have the doctors on Friday morning and I'm going back to CBT on saturday..right now they are the only things getting me through the week.

Okay that's enough ranting and moaning for one post.

Xx

[Yummimummi]

Hi

I'm sorry you felt poorly today but well done for making some positive steps towards combating it xx

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Thanks you.

I'm trying so hard to be positive but it's wearing really really thin how I feel...it's amazing how one day you can have a fab day and feel amazing then before you no it you are down on the ground again. Hopefully we all get there xx

[Hidden]

I know how you feel about being fed up with it. Don't be annoyed with yourself though, just think of it as one of those things and try to put it behind you. I know it's easier said than done. I hope this evening is a nice relaxing one for you xx

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Thanks Winter.

I'm gonna go for a bath...try and relax and get into bed. Hopefully I get to sleep no problem...need a good night in my bed lol

xx

[Hidden]

Hey

Got my dongle in or what ever you call them

I know you have bee having a bad time & I don't think the doctors are fobbing you of when they say its anxiety , I do know though when you are getting all these symptoms it can be so hard to believe !

I think when you see them the best thing now would to be try what they offer to help you

Sorry this isn't the best answer in the world today but wanted to let you know I am listening to you

Love

whywhy

xxx

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Hey you.

Thanks for replying when I know you have your own stuff do deal with. Yes I'm going to go into the doctors with a more pushy attitude on Friday as I can't go on like this...I feel like my life is skipping away from me and I should be out there enjoying it...I'm only 27...fingers crossed this time xxx

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Hi

You go & be more pushy I know you can !

I understand at 28 I feel just the same

xxx

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28? I'd never of thought you was over 21 hehehe xx

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[donaf]

Hi Ashley sorry to hear uve had a bad day with or anxiety. Give or self a pat on the back thou as even after ur panic attack u still never run. I wud of been out the door back home on the settee feeling sorry for myself. As to being fed up of feeling like it im with u on that. Like u i feel as if ive took a 100 steps back as i thought after mostly last year i only felt it slightly at times i thought in i was getting back to feeling normal. Now its creeping back and as been for a few months or so. I've even been to the doctors this morning and he's putting me back on my medication but I've now got to work myself up to taking one everyday. I was lieing in bed the other night and i realised that wen i was feeling better last year i was still always on edge. Thinking of the next time i was going to get anxious. We can and will overcome it. I started my mood gym again last night on the internet. My doctor had told me about it a few years back wen i was at my worst. I am going to complete it this time to c if it helps in anyway. Xxx

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Hey you.

Thanks for replying...I did think about going home but I just thought what's the point..go home and feel sorry for myself...prob would make me worse. I don't understand how I can feel worse now than I ever did...it makes me hate myself more as I think how can I not have progressed at all in the last year..hopefully this is a set back and I'll start to feel better! Otherwise I'm gonna pull my hair out xx