Hi everyone, I'm new to this site and at the moment reading through everyone's experiences is providing me with some comfort to know that others feel like I do, but my anxiety does feel particularly out of control at the moment and quite frankly I don't know what to do next.
My anxiety started as a child, my dad died suddenly and I found him so I have always felt very anxious that everyone else that I love will die suddenly too.
Work makes me anxious, I constantly have an impending sense of doom and have huge difficulties with sleeping, going to sleep is fine, but I can't stay asleep and when I wake I can't make my mind switch off. I have a great job but it's looking like I will be made redundant very soon so I'm applying for new jobs, but even though I have a masters degree and a great references, I feel that I'm not good enough to do anything else.
Just reading this back makes me feel so pathetic, what a loser I am. But hey! this site's anonymous, this is how I truly feel so if there's any advice you can give me I would be very appreciated!