What is the deal with these panic attacks?
Why are we made to suffer?
What have we done wrong?
I've discovered you really dont have to feel worked up or anything before they strike. My attacks come on instantly. I have no reason. I don't feel scared or threatened, they just happen.
I was in Tesco about two hours ago and had an attack walking through the boys clothing.
Don't know why it happened or even what i was thinking about that could have caused it but i thought i was going to die right there next to the wellies lol.
I even considered going to the changing cubical to 'die' because then at least i wouldnt cause a scene. But didnt feel capable of putting one foot infront of another.
I had to pretend i was looking at the clothes while i calmed myself down, regulated my heartbeat and took my coat off.
As horrid as it sounds, i'd like to see someone have a panic attack as i've been told i just look normal (don't bleeding feel it) but have 'scared eyes' afterwards.
My CBT lady said when she goes shopping around the supermarket and spots an abandoned trolley she cant help but wait for the owner to come back. She said nine times out of ten someone walks up to it all sheepishly and wheels it straight towards the checkout.
Panic attacks are very common but why does no-one tell you this before you start getting them yourself?