missing a funeral , am I awful ?

was going to go to a friend of the families funeral today but this horrible anxiety came on again , I feel awful about not going but felt I wouldn't be able to cope seeing them with their loss, I know you have to face these events because the anxiety will come back worse. am I a coward? any help you can give me .

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No, Newton - you are def NOT a coward!!!! Funerals are horrible, difficult, emotional events even when you're fighting fit, when you're suffering anxiety/depression - no, it's too much.

Yes, I understand what you say about having to "face these events" - but learning to swim doesn't mean diving in the 12ft end!!!! And you might even have made it worse, if you'd had an anxiety attack!

So - forgive/understand yourself, Newton, you weren't up to going - if you had any other disabling illness you wouldn't blame yourself, would you? Try to forget it, and move on.

Love

Rose

xxxxxx

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Hi Newton, of cause your not awful.

Funerals can be hard at any times but believe me when I say, going could have made your anxiety feel a lot worse. Please don't beat yourself, like Rosé said you weren't up to going and you need to forgive yourself.

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No you are not a coward putting yourself under more pressure is not what you need right now. Please don't worry about not going. I had a similar situation last year and I knew if I went to the funeral I would have made myself ill. Funerals are hard at the best of times. Don't be hard on yourself love eve x

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thank you all for your reassuring comments it really does help that others understand,i am not alone.