Hello Family :) Big post sorry.

[Trip]

Hey all been some time sorry about that

I have to say this is not a sad post more of a look how things are changing for me on the good side for once

Well let's start with one thing I have to say even shocked me!

I went to a pace i have never been and didn't freak out and wait for it ....... it was in a town shopping center with I would say close to 200+ people I walked around the town even had a coffee outside with people i did not know! Had a small hit of anxiety on the way back as I had taken notice on how far i had walked being in a place i did not know,but that passed.

I also went in to Argos! this is like the doors to hell for me as there's only one way in and out and lots of people in a small space. I blush when i type this but i even made the time to flirt with the lady behind the counter lol ( i am a man i can't help it)

so that was a real shocker for me and I got home and waited for the bad after all that good but nothing! I had a great night sleep and even woke up early the next day for my next big mission of the week!

I had it in my had for weeks go go and take some pictures of what i have been trying to hide from for all the years, yes that's right Life,the world and how big it is! and I did it!

I got my camera bad all set up with a bottle of water and well the bast way of putting it left my anxiety on the door step.

I went to the most open place I could think of as this was the only way to know how scary the big wide world was. I got to the place where I wanted to take my pictures and just stood there looking in to the world with not a thing going around my head. it was so peaceful and beautiful I did not think of anything else but how much I have let my anxiety and depression take from me!

I say down on the grass that to me seemed to be more green then I remember and put my headphones in and listened to my favorite song .

youtube.com/watch?v=c4BLVzn...(Not working as expected?)

I am starting to see a new side to my life and I am going to hold on to this with everything i have.

Trip

x

[Hidden]

Well done, I am soooo happy for you. Xxxx can't wait to feel like that, I know it will come.xxx

[Trip]

Hi cookie it will in time, just keep strong as we can all beat this we just have to fing our own way of doing.

Trip

x

[Hidden]

Brilliant Trip , even a bit of flirting in Argos lol

I am so pleased to see how you have come on love

Made me smile as you say you listened to your favourite song & added it on the end so we can have a listen

Love

whywhy

xxx

[marcusvanbreugel]

Dear Trip,

I am so happy for you.

It appears that you have been through rough times and are now doing so well. You are amazing.

The song that i have something with is 'feel' by robbie williams.

warmest regards,

Marcus

[Hidden]

I'm so chuffed for you..... I remember some of your first posts.... you have come miles.... really well done!!

So pleased!!

xx

[jobrisley]

Hooray will done.

[Hidden]

Such a lovely post to read trip x

When the good days come they feel so nice. I remember noticing the green grass and blue sky, I hadn't realised how much I'd been crushed by my anxiety and depression. The simple things mean so much. I wish I had a magic wand to make everyone well again. I hope you experience many more days like this love eve x

[sheffieldwed]

Hi hun so pleased for you and excited that you are doing extremely well i really am its nice to think of you having a smile on your face it makes me smile too i having a bit of a rough time at mo but trying not to let it get me in the state i was you keep going hun and keep smiling i am so so so proud of you all my love xxxxxxxxxx

[Trip]

Thank you all for the lovely comments I have to say it the help of you guys being there for me so thank you all.

xxx

Trip

xxx

[Rose555]

Great work trip! So pleased for you! Xxx

[Kaz12345]

hey Trip, so pleased to hear this. you are doing so well and I do believe the more you do the better you will feel. Ats so nice when you can get to appreciate the world again. I love walking in the local woods, even in the bad weather (its lovely in the snow), and the bluebells will be out soon. the world is not a bad place, we all need to get out there and life doesn't come to us, we have to go out there and grab it. keep on doing what you're doing ....

[Minnie12]

That's brilliant!! Well done and nice to see that you had bit naughty flirtation, why not?? you've done so well and keep going xx