I apologise for writing this so don't read on if you are also having a bad time.
I feel awful, so low and sad, can't seem to function, I don't feel like myself anymore. Have cancelled holiday I was going on next week as it is making me too stressed. I feel like I spoil everything and will never get back to feeling well. I don't know what to do anymore just sit there feeling numb, can't read, watch tv or anything. Meds don't seem to work but have tried so many over the years. I'm frightened and just want it all to stop. So sorry. Will try and contact doctor tomorrow don't want to but have no choice.