I'm in a really bad place

My anxiety and derealization are super high and I'm convinced I'm either going to die or go crazy any day now and I have no motivation to do anything. And when I say no motivation I mean NO motivation. I don't even want to listen to music. All I want to do is sleep to escape the horrible feelings. I've been to the hospital, tried to find a mental hospital but they're all terrible around here, won't accept me, or haven't gotten back to me, tried to push myself to do SOMETHING but I just can't. It's like I'm paralyzed by fear and have no interest in anything anymore. I can't even cry. I did just stop taking effexor completely but I was on a really low dose and I'm taking Prozac 40 mg now so if it's withdrawal I don't understand why it's so terrible. I mean I can't imagine myself doing anything ever again.

[Michael8072]

Hi someone5673

Sending you a hug and some positive vibes. I hope things turn around for you soon. I know what you mean by no motivation. I was there a couple months ago. Just continue to take things day by day. What’s been going on?

[Smfri2020]

Your not alone ! I get that sensation too that I’m not going to keep living . It’s horrible even my breathing is messed up due to my anxiety . It’s horrible im always shaking of nerves and it’s so frustrating to think that I will never be the same it scares me . Please know your not alone .

[Agora1]

Hi Shelby, I've been going back to your old posts and can't help but feel that either the right

medication and dosage has yet to be found or that you have been overmedicated throughout the years. I'd be the first to vote "yes" on taking medication along with therapy

however, when symptoms such as anxiety/derealization continue after you having tried

over 20 different prescriptions?? then it's time to look elsewhere.

This isn't fair to you. You're not living you are barely existing in a world full of fear and doubt. You are young and have lost 7 years of your life fighting anxiety. Have you ever

tried to stop "fighting". Fighting will get you no where with anxiety. The only thing anxiety

is afraid of is our "accepting" it as a lie. Anxiety is a cunning, lying entity that comes from

our thoughts and then goes one step further giving us physical sensations.

Shelby, something started this at the young age of 17 and has made it continue despite

all you've tried. If something traumatic happened to you, it cannot be swept under the rug.

It must be addressed in order for you to proceed forward and reaching your goal.

If it's not that than it sounds like it could be a "situational" issue. Something you are living

with each and every day. If that's the case, then your subconscious mind is replaying that

while you sleep, first thing upon awakening as well as throughout the day. (giving you that

unreal feeling).

These are just my thoughts through my own experiences over my lifetime. It took a long time for me to get my life back. I want more than anything to see this happen to you as well.

Make a plan in where you will be by the age of 30. Small steps. If something doesn't work,

move on to something else. Don't become stuck and entrapped in a cycle of fear. I want to

help you break that cycle with the help of your therapist/doctor. I just know one day you will be writing the forum telling everyone how it use to be for you. Then you will know you

have won. xx

[cortisolqueen in reply to Agora1]

Agora1 I just read your reply without glancing at who wrote it. I should have known it was from you! You are the best, your posts carry so much knowledge and love. Thank you for helping us still stuck in the muck and fear of this monster we call anxiety. Much love to you.

[Agora1 in reply to cortisolqueen]

Thank you cortisolqueen, but know that each and every response comes from my own

life experiences with anxiety. It's been a long hard road but the payoff in being persistent and never giving up was worth it. With love xx

[Ragdoll15 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you Agora I needed to hear this today as I'm feeling the worst I ever have and wondering if I will ever feel "normal" again. How do I stop feeling so fearful about everything. My brain will just not relax and I dread what will happen if I don't calm down. I feel stuck in this place called fear which has become my prison.

[Agora1 in reply to Ragdoll15]

Hi ward, being stuck is the worst place ever. The cycle of fear continues to grow unless

we do something to stop it. Oh sure, medication and therapy helps but there's got to

be more. One thing is to never doubt that you might not get better. Anxiety loves having you in that position. What it fears more than anything is ignoring it. Accepting

it as nothing but a bully. It will knock on your door with one fear after another but stand

up to it and know that it is nothing but lies it tells you.

Finding other methods to quiet your mind and body through meditation, breathing or anything else that works for you and you alone. Reach out to the forum as well as YouTube in finding other ways to be back in control with your life again. Affirmations

are good because they put the Positive thinking over the negative. Remember what you

think is what you get. It will all work out in time. xx Believe that

[destinymichelle in reply to Agora1]

I needed to read this. I’m doing worse than I ever have and I’m only 19 years old and I’ve been thinking that I’m going to die because of my anxiety for almost 3 months now.

[Agora1 in reply to destinymichelle]

Hi destinymichelle. Welcome to this amazing anxiety forum. Is this the first time

you've suffered with anxiety? What happened 3 months ago that prompted the anxiety to become so severe? We are here to support each other through our

own experiences with anxiety. We may not be doctors but we can understand

what you are going through and how frightening it can be. Everyone here cares.

I'm glad you reached out to us. xx

[destinymichelle in reply to Agora1]

I’ve had anxiety almost my whole entire life. The first time I was diagnosed with anxiety the dr told me it was “chronic anxiety” at that time I was so young and I didn’t really understand what it meant. 3 months ago I went to the ER and they diagnosed me with generalized anxiety disorder. I finally had a better grasp about what it actually meant. I calmed down for about a week after having a bunch of tests come back perfectly normal, but then I started freaking out again. The past 3 months the symptoms have been really random. Randomly I’ll feel like I can’t breathe and that I’m not breathing properly, I’ll be lightheaded, and I’ll have chest pain. I made my own post about this explaining my situation a lot better if you’d care to read it. Anything will help... thank you so much.

[Agora1 in reply to destinymichelle]

Let me take a look. It's going to be okay.

You are in a safe, caring place. xx

[Ragdoll15 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you!

[Ragdoll15 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you!

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Agora1 beautiful from the heart response. You are such a blessing ❤️

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

And so are you lynnalice. Your responses are always kind and always

with respect. Make it a great day. xx

[Kainan]

Hey. I know how you feel. I was in a similar state much like yours not too long ago and for quite a long period of time. If you don't feel up to do something or can't decide what it is you want to do, then try to accept the situation as it is. And whatever you decide to do or end up doing, accept it as if you have chosen it.

It's important to give the mind the rest it needs, otherwise it will be hard for you to make any kind of decision, big or small. When the mind is well rested, then you'll be able to listen to yourself, trust your intuitions, and then go from there.

I know your anxiety must be high, but try to catch any instances where your anxiety dies off just a little and you feel more at peace. Try to pay attention to these moments, however fleeting, and see how they feel

[megiannis]

Hi, reading your post was like reading about myself in every sense. I too feel paralyzed from fear all the time...no motivation...just want to sleep and lets not get into health anxiety. I see you are now on prozac . I have been taking it for years and it has helped me together with xanax. If you need to talk about anything I am here for you.