A visit 2 hospital 4 xray 4 suspected pnumonia then a visit 2 drs 4 meds 4 stomache ulcer, cnt eat, cnt sleep, cnt relax + am losing it, dr said that phyciatric ward rnt takin any1 in no room, live in burnley + wld hav 2 go ormskirk (bloody miles away) is the nhs that bad at the moment. dr said meds wont work 4 my anxiety as can still feel it through major tranquilisers + diazepam, said my anxiety is so bad that meds will only work if they give me enough 2 knock me out were i am unconcios + they wont prescribe that amount. only put my antideptessants up a very small amount, asked 4 them higher but said hav 2 do it gradualy bcause of my history wiv reactin 2 meds so the dose im on is minute, gonna take about 5mnths now 2 get me on the dose required. drs + crisis team dnt know wot 2 do wiv me so sighned me off after 3mnths not gettin anywere. my recently diagnosed 14yr old daughter is bein tested 2morrow by the early intervention phyciatric team 4 phycosis. im bein looked after by my mum who as a life time of metal hlth probs + this is the tip of the iceburg blieve me wen i say theres hell of a lot more + anxiety origanily started wen i found my baby wiv a ligament tied round her neck cause of school phobia but has now moved 2 a medical school. it killed me 2 go through this wiv my baby, never flt pain like it, jst want 2 b better 4 her as she has 2 live wiv her dad 4 now. am i cursed? is my family cursed?