Suffering from axiety for a long time has reduced my confidence and assertiveness levels to zero. This has affected my career and wonder sometimes if i will ever be confident and assertive again.This is worse at work in somuch i've left few jobs in the paast due to this.It's worse when i meet too opinionated and assertive people i feel like shrinking and hide. This makes my relationship with people so hard i feel they can sense my fear whenever i try to say something. It's worse when it involves argument i panic and don't sleep at all.
I've just requested to only nightshifts to run away from day politics but been granted only 3 months to do that. I'm already worried sick about what happens when i go back to day shifts.My anxiety levels now i such that i don't cope well especially i'm still grieving my recent loss of my mum. I'm already thinking about resigning.