Feeling Flat.

[SweetieCass]

Hi Everyone.

I feel I haven't written on here for awhile but really it has only been a few days. I guess each day is feeling like a year for me at the moment.

So my anxiety has been pretty ok these last few days. I had a pretty stressful moment on New Years Eve, because the party I tagged along to with my friend ended up being a dinner party and I felt so rude!!! I was under the impression is was just people getting together for a few drinks and my friend who invited me didn't give me any indication otherwise. Yet I get there and the table is made etc. I just felt so rude to intrude on something like that when I only knew the girl who invited me. That anxiety is just not going away either. I even said sorry to the host and told her that I didn't realise it was a proper dinner party. Luckily they didn't seem to mind at all. . . still . . . I worried and couldn't enjoy my night

The reason I am writing at the moment is that I feel flat and I just can't seem to feel anything. Not like physically but just generally. Its great I'm not getting anxious, I am thankful for that but this feeling of being flat, numb and a little disconnected is really scaring me. I upped my seraltraline to 100mg on Thursday but its only Sunday so I didn't think that would affect it. I also had hypnotherapy (my friends mum practices it) on Tuesday but I didn't feel it did anything. I just don't know why I am feeling like this! I'm trying to enjoy it and take the chance to rest for a moment but its not like my brain is stopping, its myself thats just not reacting, I still think the stupid, illogical thoughts! Sorry I probably sound crazy right now trying to describe this.

Anyone else feel like this?? Its 15 days till I go home and I am just so happy but I can't feel it!

Hope everyone's night is good and you are all relaxing.

[alfie19]

Hi Sweetiecassas

This time of year again is the same for me. I hope my comments help you.

Feeling flat and numb is the low side of the depression.

Find something that you like doing to give yourself a boost.

Live your life how you want to live it and enjoy every minute that you can cos you deserve it.

Forget about how people treat you its their problem or you could tell them how it affects you.

I have suffered with severe depression for 16yrs. I didn't tell anyone just kept it to myself as I thought I could deal with it. I eventually was put on Prozac which certainly gave me an uplift and I was able to laugh again. The downside I put on 2stone. I lost the extra weight when I came off the tablets and went on the Cambridge DIet this gave me something to focus on.

I lost the weight and was happy again. I had a new life.

Sadly now I am 5st overweight and nearly 60yrs but feel 90yr female.

Not having a proper family ie: no children its the sadess time of the year for me I try and get through it the best I can but as I get older I sometimes need people around me to help me do things due to my illness.

I felt really low and did nothing about it I went out once over the Xmas after that no-one visited me so I stayed with a friend but when I got up early hours of the morning had a cup of tea I then put my thoughts to paper.

I was amazed at what I had written.

When I got back home and had quite moments to myself I sat and off loaded my thoughts, worries or what was going through my head onto paper.

I rang the Drs for an appointment nothing available so I asked to see a Nurse instead as I had a bad flareup of ezama (infection) due to my worries she was very helpful I got a new prescription and urgent appointment to see a GP next week as I showed the Nurse what I had written down as with depression you forget a lot.

Now I am frightened about seeing the GP sounds silly.

My head spins around in circles until I put pen to paper and write down what is going on in my mind sometimes its like a two-way conversation.

The Demon saying one thing to me (end it now why prolong the agony) and (my mum who passed away 15yrs ago) who I feel still helps me when it is needed saying don't allow yourself to get so low you must beat it to win this ever so long battle to succeed.

This is a big challenge in your life to overcome something that has been lingering on for so long help is at hand just for asking the right people.

Help is the first step and stay with it don't run away that is a cowards way.

You will fight this with all your strength at times you may get a setback but get up again and fight do not sit and sulk but make sure you have a good sleep to re-build your energy.

Sorry about the spelling mistakes hope what I have written helps you.

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I started feeling numb after being on fluoxetine for a few weeks. First time I've taken antidepressants. My uncle died had been ill for a while hadn't seen him since little but normally would have cried. Didn't feel anything. Sad for my family. Still the anxiety is better and my mood is better but like you I still have silly thoughts and feel surreal at times. I went onto the Samaritans website the other night and it helped to listen to other peoples stories. One thing the lady said that really helps is to tell yourself to just make it through the next few seconds, minutes, hours. Struck home cause I know I've managed before and I guess that's what I did. What scares me is how I didn't realise how bad I was but I can look back and think I am doing better and if I just make it through those dark moments I will get stronger and stronger. Thing about depression is how hard it is to be positive and I think what other people may hardly think about takes all our energy battling. I am glad you posted. It really helps when people describe things you are feeling or thinking. Take care.

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Yeah, I get the feeling of flatness after too many anxious days, its feels like my engine has been switched off and I am rolling down hill, inevitably the engine kicks back in and I am back to 1st gear driving

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Good idea putting pen to paper Alfie. Have been meaning to do this. More so cause can't talk when go to counselling and thought if I write down a list of things i am struggling with it would be a starting point. My thoughts go round in circles too and feel there are things I need to tackle to go forward instead of in circles but think the first step is talking and it's so hard to open up. I would rather find a way to do it myself but just not getting there. Hope all goes well at the doctors. At least you have written some stuff down for them to see and don't have to rely on remembering. I often come away having forgot or been unable to say something and often forget what has been said to me. I can see the funny side of that too so I must be feeling better