As you all know I'm deaf and got health anxiety for about 2 months but do get anxious few times since I was a teenage due parents both passed away but not bad as now.
I always worry if my anxiety doesn't get better then my husband might leave me, got enough of my anxiety etc but he reassured me that he will never but what I'm saying will he be able to cope with my anxiety in next 4-5 years?? Got married to him 2 years ago and been together for nearly 6 years. Love him very much but at the moment I seem can't focus on our marriage because I'm quite anxious about my health such as headache- dull werid feelings on right side back of head on & off for 2 weeks and worry what if its brain tumour but my GP reassured me many times that I do not have it, its not painful or banging headache its like something poking with bit of pain on same area on and off- sometime bit headache but not bad but now got ache on right neck- sort of stiff or muscles pulled. Gp won't lie right?
Also sorry if its too much info, I've noticed my sex drive had gone down a bit and don't feel up for it but will let my husband to do all work, I know its not right but better than say no and push him away. Anyone feel like this? I don't want to ruin our marriage with my anxiety?? I love him a lot and we were trying for baby for 18 months but no successful and been refered to fertility gyne last feb and did lots of test included my husband's swimmers (sorry tmi) result was excellent but found out I'm not ovulating and got thin womb lining mean difficult for eggs to implant so been on clomid 4 rounds and didn't work then had hsg to checked my fallption tubes if any blockage but its cleared and no blockage then recently just a week before Xmas had a hysterscopy where they inserted camera in womb to check any scarrings, polyps, fibroids but everything is normal apart from thin lining due no horomonal support so will start letrazole (better fertility drug), supplements & drink lots milk on next period to thicken my lining and help me to ovulating so wasn't on treatments since aug due few cyst come & go on my ovary so my consultant want it to disappear first before put me on letrazole so going for a scan on monday then start treatment on next period but I'm bit scared if anxiety get worse if I become pregnant?? By the way my consultant know I got anxiety and are on waiting list for counselling. He is a understanding & lovely gyne. Give me advices what should I do about pregnancy? It will be our first trying again with monitor since August.
Suppose to see CBT counselling anytime this month but will ring on Monday and find out the date for first session. Please tell me my anxiety will get better and wont ruin my marriage??wont it get worse when become pregnant??
Please reassure me xx