How I get here...????

[islandspa]

Hi. I'm new here. Never thought that I got the chance to experience anxiety. I always feel I'm strong and healthy. Anxiety is awful and strange - it changes my life . I've been experience not able to walk ( as it felt like want to pass out) , strange heart beat during my meal, racing heart beat when hear loud music, anxious in d middle of large crowd and skipping heart during my treadmill.

Whole body are imbalance, thought as though i have sickness and the doctor no way to find out.

Been called "MONSTER" by my husband, devastated . I guess...... nobody can understand this unless the person had the same problem.

One doctor told me, that I had this because who I am, the way I think - it's not just happen now, it accumulate from long time ago - it just since now I'm getting older, then the body can't take it anymore.

I guess I must thankful to have this anxiety, because now I start paying attention about myself, start taking a great care about how I eat ,how i use my thought and how I live my life.

If I myself create this anxiety, by right I can also delete it. If it takes war to battle then I will make myself at prime condition.

I make a DECISION.

I start to eat healthy, dozen type of vitamins intake, regular exercise,sleep early, "DELETE" anybody and anything that be part of my depression. I remove and stay away from SADNESS

I Change the way I think. create new focus in life. and do the things and only things that make myself HAPPY.

If life is short, I think ---- it's not worth to have this anxiety to be taking part.

It doesn't matter how I get this anxiety, important is how I get out of it

[ellabella]

Hi Island Spa, Welcome to our world! Here we are a community of people all whom have experienced or are currently experiencing anxiety/ depression. You won't find anyone here telling you to "snap out of it" or calling you a monster!!! cheeky husband!. I am wondering if you have started your healthy regime or vowing to start it? New year is a great time to start anything new. I would lay a few bets that we all have some sort of change in mind!! You have some great ideas there but I would only disagree with one and that is battle. I am working on acceptance. Just saying " come on do your worst, you can't physically kill me" the fear and panic washes through me and out the other side. Eventually it comes very rarely. Although the last few weeks have been horrible. Keep blogging my friend. Share your secrets with us of healthy living . You are correct, it's not worth having anxiety. We give it far too much of our precious time Love x Ella x

[islandspa in reply to ellabella]

Hi Ellabella, Nice to meet you, thanks for your comment!!!

I'm started my regime 1 month ago - I'm blessed with loyal friend whom want to see me happy.

Acceptance is good thing!!!

Hope things are goes well with you too - Merry Christmas and happy new year

[ellabella]

Thank you Darling and the same back to You! Great to have you on board ! xxxxxxxxxx

[Hidden]

Hi. Island, and a very great welcome to the site. You have already met elle and please read carefully what she says. She knows! There is one point I would make. You say you stay away from sadness and delete anything that causes sadness. We would have great difficulty avoiding those things in life and some of them can be helpful in recovery. What a strange thing to say? Well, when you have read some of the posts from those on this site you will realise what a brave lot they are, and in reading their posts you will gain heart in your progress toward recovery. Ella is so right. Fighting, struggling and AVOIDING will not get you very far. FACING and ACCEPTING will. Acceptance means that you cut off the flow of adrenaline which causes the anxiety and gradually you begin to feel calmer. But this does take time and perseverance. Try not to be impatient with time. However, acceptance is not for everyone and others will offer advice with other ways. Any way is good if you feel comfortable with it. Come back whenever you feel the need. We have all been where you are now and we KNOW how you feel. Very best wishes. jonathan.

[islandspa in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Jonathan, actually by saying fight for, it is not fighting the circumstances, I'm fighting anxiety, as i believe when our body strong ( such as so exercise or surround our thought with positive input ) - no illness can befall us.

still in testing period , though ---- but accepting is a good thing

[Hidden]

Sorry Island. Just want to say that in re-reading your post I notice at the beginning you talk of 'war' and 'battle' Both these things are OUT with acceptance. No fighting no battle just total acceptance. Your natural desire is to battle but don't do it. Best wishes. J.

[islandspa in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Jonathan

[marcusvanbreugel]

Hi Islandspa,

Some of the things you write about like skipping heartbeat and feel like want to pass out, and racing heartbeat and anxious in large crowd sound familiar to me, I have also had some of those. I hope it helps you to know that other have similar things. I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder and have been told i have panic attacks recently.

Try to talk to your GP if you are worried. I have learnt to do this and am discovering that you learn about things and anxiety.

all the best,

Marcus

[islandspa in reply to marcusvanbreugel]

Thanks Marcus,

I did talk to my Gp in fact I'm become regular they ask me to see psychiatric n fix my mental problem instead of taking anti depressant

But a good friend suggest me to start my exercise to be strong, n it did help me.

Cheaper than paying all the meds bill n all un necessary health screen

Hope things goes well with you

[marcusvanbreugel in reply to islandspa]

Hi Islandspa,

You are very welcome. Welcome to this site and the community. It is so nice to hear that exercise helps. I am Sorry about the GP things that I wrote. It didn't quite write the right things. You are talking to your GP.

Thank you. I hope things go very well with you.

all the best,

Marcus,