Hi - I know (I hope!) everyone's happily in dreamland, but just wanted to get it out. Just so tired/stressed - bathroom(s) still aren't' finished, and won't be now before Christmas, I don't think. They've still got the flooring to do upstairs and down (don't know when) and the shower to fit. I should explain I can't bathe atm, that's why I wanted a shower, cos i've got arthritis and can't "sit down" - I'm hoping for physio in the New Year, and possibly to get a bath stool - but that won't be before Christmas. even if they fit the shower not sure they'll be able to fit the shower curtain so will still have probs getting clean. Today - that is yesterday now - I'd had a bad night with IBS, had workmen in both the bathrooms up and down, was knackered (had had about 2 hrs sleep!) - so just lay on the sofa with a rug over me and fell asleep. I've Got so "attuned" to workmen banging on the door, I was asleep and one of the men made a noise and I started awake shouting "Im coming!" - though there was no-one there!
i even laughed yesterday, - had 2 bathrooms and couldn't even get a wash cos men were in both of them!
I had a HORRIBLE Christmas last year - i don't do much for Christmas but was determined not to have such a horrible one this year - I actually took a photo of myself last Xmas Day - hair unwashed, in my dressing gown, looking like death not very well warmed up. Wanted to try to make this one a bit better, but struggling. Got a miniature (1 ft high) artificial tree and a poinsettia and was going to make a little "Christmas corner" with the few pressies I buy - but the house is still filthy. I know that's not enitrely due to the workmen, although I do get paralysed when people invade my space - I can't "do" anything - and I'm so TIRED!!! Wasn't "good" before it started!!!! I don't relax till really late at night + several valium, then fall asleep on the sofa at like 1 am, then wake in the small hours - like this morning - feeling absolute crap, nervy, scared of meltdown, everything crashing in on me. And if one more person tells me it will be "Lovely when it's done" I shall probably strangle them and spend Christmas in Holloway! I mean, I know they're right, but not sure whether i'll be in a rubber room by then! Can't blame the workmen, they've been brill - most of them - but just wish Christmas was a week away - although can't wait to be shot of 2012! - OR I was better at coping with stuff, OR my life hadn't gone pear shaped nearly 10 years ago OR - well you get the idea........
Hanging on by teeth and fingernails atm, a rescue line would be good, though i know we're all struggling