hi im a new user and im at my witts end.ever since i was 15 years old ive suffered from panic attacks and irrational thought ..it first happened in a shopping centre completely out of the blue .everything seemed to slow down but my head felt like it was spinning and my hands where instantly clammy but i didnt get the racing heart.and i got the wierd sense of being in a dream .was this a panic attack. my inittial thought was to run home so i did . big mistake ! as my mother suffered from agoraphobia since i was born she nevver did anything about it and was taking vallium form me being a year old till the day she died . and through this we never had holidays or even days out with mam cos she just couldnt do it and would run home in a pannic .and i watched her do this from being a child.so when i got home and explained what happened to me she said it was panic attacks and sent me to the doctors who told me dont be silly you dont take panic attacks.so as a last resort i confided in a friend who seemed to understand but then proceeded to tell every one he new that i was mad .and a schizophrenic wich really stuck with me . that fear of going insane and doing something to harm myself or worse sombody else .so i started doing what my mam did and stayed within a cumfort zone of security i.e no more than 10 minutes from my home on foot .wich intern has waisted half my life . but i still can not shake the feeling and thoughts that im going insane so i started self medicating with alchohol. FOOLISH i know cos that really does make it worse . i would drink spirits from bottle just to surpress it fast and effectively then i wouldnt think about my thoughts of going mental/insane . and the problem with the night before is dark hell of the morning after when every is magnified by 50 and the only way to control it is with more alchohol .im off the drink now and being honest its only been 3 days since hopefully my last bender . if i can get this problem sorted with my fears i will stay off the drink full time as the only reason i drink is to black out for about 10 hours not for social reasons or because i enjoy it . its purely medicinal.so to sum it up ive lived with this for 16 years the fear of going insane . and really wanted to know if im alone hear or has anyone suffered this and am i to far gone for any help . and also the fear of being sectioned cripples me . sorry this ones bit long folks am just a newbie and wanted to get a lot in
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