So my weekend was OK. After having 4 or 5 days of feeling great however I feel like things have started to take a dive. I've felt so incredibly tired over the last few days, to the point where I almost feel drunk! I wouldn't say my anxiety has been terrible but it's just been a lingering feeling of illness/uncertainty.
I find myself sitting watching TV when my stomach would flip and my chest would tighten and I'd just think 'Great, get on with it'. I'm very tired with it now.
I think my main worry is the effect that it has on my partner. Since the feelings and attacks started (about 6 weeks ago) I feel like I'm immersed in myself and my feelings. I'm not going about my days as I usually would, I'm really being quite selfish. The atmosphere around the house has changed and although he is so supportive I can see that it's very frustrating for him. I do explain how I'm feeling and talk through things with him but never too much as I know he has things on his plate too. I just want things to get back to normal so I can go back to being confident again and get out and about and get our relationship back to what it was. I've delayed talking about holidays as I don't feel confident enough yet to go on one, even a small camping trip this weekend, I would love to go but the lack of understanding and confidence is holding me back but it would be lovely for us to spend some time together. I think I am having one of those days. My home has become my comfort zone I think.