I have a 2 year old son who I adore, I've been fine with him (if a little over protective) until recently when ended up having to ring 3 ambulances in the space of 3 days due to him having a serious allergic reaction. Since this episode, 4 - 6 weeks ago, I've been a complete nervous wreck when it comes to him.
If I'm not near him I want to know he's OK, if he's nearby I want to run a mile because I'm constantly analysing his every action. The joy of being a dad has completely disappeared for me, I feel so anxious and I've even had times when my head feels physically numb and even woken from my sleep with my heart pounding out of it's chest.
My girlfriend has been supportive and I even packed them off to her parents because I couldnt be near him as I was so anxious with him about.
I thought I was doing better of late but he's had a mild stomach upset and seems to be getting a bit of a cough and all I want to do is run a mile again, it's like if he's not there then it's not happening. The only person I trust with him is my girlfriend and I feel like I'm heaping pressure onto her. I know I must sound nuts, if I was an outsider looking in I would think that my life was perfect (good job, nice place etc) but this is starting to become a massive issue.
I'm honestly not sure what to do for the best. White wine makes everything OK for a while but I don't want go down that road especially as it gives me really bad reflux.