Lost

[diaclone480]

As I remember the things I've done.

As I think about the places I've been.

As I look at the person I've become.

How I miss the person I used to be.

How I wish, they were here now with me.

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Ditto.

I feel something akin to grief for the loss of a "normal" life, and "normal" reactions to things. i wonder what life would have been like without this wretched anxiety disorder.

However, I find it useful to focus on what I CAN still achieve, and what I still am as a person - ie, I have a brain, a personality, a sense of humour, etd, and am not defined 100% by my anxiety. It helps, but it's a battle not to look back with a sense of loss over what might have been.

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P.S. I've just read some of your previous comments and see that there are similarities between us. I have also been ill the same number of years, also had a very bad reaction to Seroxat in the early days and am also frustrated at the lack of recovery so far.

I see that you're able to work full time though. Do you have to work close to home in a specific role that you feel comfortable with? If so, how do you manage your anxiety when at work? i only work six hours a week in a local office and sometimes it's torture to turn out, although I'm usually okay when I get there.

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I can completely relate to this. x

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Seroxat made me feel suicidal and agressive, soon stopped taking it!