so i lay awake at night up to any where between 2 and 4 thinking through every scenario possible. how i would tell people i have cancer? how i would cope if close family or friend/s died? what my future is going to be like? Am i going to be succsessful? Am i going to live till i'm 70? How many kids will i have?..if any! Will i have a nice husband? where will i meet him? what job will i have? will i get paid an fair wage?........i cant keep this up very longer..