Well where to start......
i have had some really good days between the 10th and 24th of this month, (sorry if tmi and no sympathy needed) even after i miscarried on the 17th i was still feeling quite "normal" which was a surprise to myself.
My and my partner got married on the 18th and spend a few days kid free in the highlands and after picking the kids up from the mother in laws on the 25th we started the journey home. Anyway and hour into the 7hour journey the car started playing up and for some reason i had a panic attack, the car was overheating and in my mind i was thinking "omg car is going to set on fire when i'm driving and the kids are in the car"
Since then my anxiety has been sky high even thought we did make it home all in one piece.
Saturday night i started feeling unwell with headache, sickness, shivers and unable to sleep and with having the miscarriage i had to go into hospital to get checked over, all was normal but i'm still feeling unwell with headaches and dizzy spells.
So with feeling unwell i'm worrying something serious is wrong and today my chest has been tight, headaches, pain in neck, just generally aching in my chest and arms and I've had a few palpitations this evening. Plus a mild panic attack tonight when i got home from shopping as i thought i was just going to pass out.
So i'm now worrying i have something wrong with my heart, i know these pains ect are caused by my anxiety as when i'm having a good day the aches and pains are minimal or not there at all.
I came off the beta blockers when i found out i was pregnant but as i am no longer i still had a few left so took one tonight, only a 10mg dose, so i hope that will help calm my brain a little. Going to ring doctors tomorrow to get an appointment to get them prescribed again and to have a chat about how i'm feeling again.
Not sure if what i have just wrote down makes sense but just needed to get it out that i'm feeling a bit of a mess tonight, thank you for reading. x