Hello Everyone, I hope everyone is having a nice day. Myself and my husband booked a trip to new York in about November last year. I have always been anxious about travelling as it was while on holiday I first had my anxiety break down (about 7/8 years ago) I had been on paroxatine since then which worked wonders. We actually got married in Cyprus and although I was worried the anxiety would return while there I was fine. I came off my paroxatine the end of last year only to end up right back where I started, severe anxiety, racing horrible thoughts etc. I have been back on paroxatine for four months and and getting there slowly. We were due to travel to new York in may but moved it to September as I believed I would be completely better. Well sept is just round the corner and I'm dreading it. I feel anxious every time I think about it. I'm so scared I get there and totally loose it. I don't want the anxiety to beat me and I know if I don't go I'm only making things worse by avoiding things. Anyone else have an experience like this?