Getting the best of me

[Dnel82]

My anxiety is back with a vengeance. After 2 consecutive weeks without any anxious physical symptoms it's back at full force. Waking up with the jitters these past 2 days has thrown me into a downward spiral. I know what needs to be done to cope.

Accept and let it be and behave unanxiously/not overreact and let go. It's so hard. The physical symptoms are so very real and terrifying. I'm not sure why this anxiety is kicking my ass right now. I don't know what to do. Why is this such a struggle? What I'm about to say makes absolutely no sense but sometimes i wish i wasn't me. I guess it's my turn to have a moment of weakness.

As i type I'm reminded of other post I've read with others struggling. This is truly no way for a person to live. I understand that in life people all have burdens and issues. But for the anxiety sufferer it's a double dose. Not only do we need to deal with the challenges we experience on the day to day, but we need to deal with the internal battle within.

We have to face and shoulder our struggles from inside our minds that translate into the debilitating physical symptoms we all know so well. We have to sit there at times pretending to be ok and put on a smile for others while deep down inside our minds we're fighting a battle. Yelling, crying, being terrified.

Anxiety is very real. I wish there was more awareness and more options out there for the sufferer besides talk therapy and medication. It's a silent disorder that's overlooked. Management and pills should not be the go for every person who's diagnosed.

I apologize for rambling on. Just getting my frustrations off my chest. Hope everyone is doing well out there. Glad this forum is here because at least I can find people who can relate and not judge me. Stay strong everyone and don't let anxiety win.

[Indigojoe]

Dnel82 something set you off. What is your best guess?

[Dnel82 in reply to Indigojoe]

My anxiety stems from fear and anticipation of panic attacks and cardiophobia.

[Indigojoe in reply to Dnel82]

if you are willing to dig deep on this question...........lets go back and ask, what is at the core of having a panic attack for you? WHat about it exaclty?

( lord knows I know my answer to that one ) but this is about your core belief about it.

Then there is a core belief about your heart. You saw, or were told something that you hold true for YOU about "feeling" your heart.

( you don't have to post any of your answers here, but if you choose to do the hard work and dig deep, please choose to write it out with pen and paper)

:0

[Dnel82 in reply to Indigojoe]

Well it's simple actually. I typed about my experience in my profile. I had a incident that occurred in my life that lead me to believe i was having a heart attack. It was so intense that i was never able to let go of what happened. Any physical discomfort i relate to heart disease and it triggers my anxiety.

Second is fear of panic attacks. The second major panic attack i had in my life was so debilitating. The terrifying fear was so intense and the derealization that followed after no words I can describe. My intrusive thoughts get the best of me because i tend to think the worst and it triggers panic attacks.

I understand the steps of what i need to do. As sufferers it's always easier said than done unfortunately. Let it be and behaving calm through these experiences is hard as hell.

[Dorsey]

Well said exactly h ow i feel.

[Hawaiiguy]

Try having pins and needles down your leg, your arms , your feet , your hands and your face and then go into shock. I’ve been feeling like this for 72 hours and it has not gone away.

[Dorsey in reply to Hawaiiguy]

Oh you poor thing how do you cope with that.

[Hawaiiguy in reply to Dorsey]

I trust in God first. But aside from that. I can’t cope with it. I literally feel anxious all the time. Games on my phone help somewhat. But this pain is so irritable it’s hard for me to sleep.

[Mindfulnessxo]

So sorry your going through this! I’m on the same boat as you! For the past two weeks I was feeling so good with barley any anxiety and tonight BOOM PANIC ATTACK! and it’s horrible! The symptoms the pain the fear is so very real 😭 wish I wasn’t me sometimes too! But I have a purpose, you have a purpose We all have a purpose in this life and with this Disorder... I’m glad you were able to VENT To us, you have a support system here! Thank you for always giving me advices and just being a caring person! Your not alone we are all in this, like you said don’t let Anxiety WIN!

xoxo take care

[Lotus4]

I feel the way you do!

[Lotus4]

I feel like you don’t know what to do!

[Lotus4]

Feel so bad constantly taking pulse blood pressure feel like I’m going to faint really in bad shape what to do I don’t know it’s terrible to live like this I call it existing not living.