I'm new here, been to the doctors today and he has diagnosed me with anxiety......
Well it all started back in January i suddenly started with pains in my leg with swollen knee and ankle. For some reason unbeknownst to me i totally freaked out and automatically thought i had a blood clot. With this thought came a tightening in my chest and dizzy & sickness feeling. It took NHS Direct nurse and 2 doctors to convince me it was just tendinitis all on separated occasions.
Even after this when my tendinitis flares up every few weeks i know its not a blood clot but something at the back of my mind keeps telling me it is and i'm forever checking my legs for signs of one, which has lead to me having multiple doctor appointments.
Anyway back in May i started with a viral infection with caused a throbbing pain in my neck and arm (left side) so again for 3 weeks i was convinced i had something seriously wrong with me, even after 3 doctors telling me its just from the viral infection.
Not long after this i was out shopping one day and all of a sudden started with chest pain and i already had an ache in my arm from doing heavy lifting the day before, but even tho logically i knew it was muscular pain i panicked....felt like i couldn't breath with a heavy chest & sweating. i went off to A&E who assured me it was just muscular pain and the ECG, Xray and bloods all came back normal so they sent me on my way with pain killers.
Since this episode where i did panic i was having a heart attack my mind has just constantly been thinking "i'm going to die or I'm going to have a heart attack" I have noticed I've been getting the odd palpitation which then sets me off worse as it makes me constantly think about my chest and every little ache and pain it making my mind constantly tick over that i'm going to die.
This past week i went out shopping and at the till i randomly started thinking that my bank card was going to be declined, even tho i knew there was no reason why it should. So i stood there at the till feeling like i couldn't breathe, sweating and totally feeling like i wanted the ground to swallow me up.
I just don't know why i keep feeling like this and this past week has been the worst as it feels like it has been constant with a heavy chest, palpitations, brain constantly ticking over i'm going to die, sweating, odd dizzy spell, taking me ages to fall asleep and just a lack of concentration.
Don't think it helped I've kept it all in these past few months with the way I've felt and the amount of doctor appointments i have had is unreal since Jan because if i cant get an appointment with my doc i will go and sit in a walk in center till i'm seen :/
So went to the doctors today and basically told him everything I've mentioned here and he diagnosed me with anxiety.
He has refereed me for CBT which he said is done online at our local surgery and should have an appointment by end if August for that. He also prescribed me with a beta blocker (propranolol) 10mg dose and said take as and when i need them.
came out of my doctor appointment and went to my dads and totally broke down told him and my partner everything with the way I've been feeling. My dad went mad saying i shouldn't take the tablets as they are addictive......is this true? also other's that have taken them, how have you found them?
My dads answer to all this is..... your dying from the day your are born stop worrying and if your worrying that much i will send you for a life scan :/ .....like that's going to help!
thanks you so much if you have managed to read this far, its nice to be able to get it all down and out in the open as such with the way i have been feeling these past few months.