Christmas has always been my favourite time of year. I love the cosy and loving feeling I usually get around this time, but this year I haven't felt it and I'm gutted. I feel like my mind hasn't been working properly, like I haven't given time and thought to the presents I've gotten people. I sat in front of my partners presents I got him and cried because I feel like they don't reflect how much I think of him, like I'm not doing enough to show my appreciation although he's told me over and over that he'd be happy to go without. I've just had this constant heaviness in my chest since I started my Christmas holidays. Consequently I'm lying awake not feeling myself when usually I'd be out for the count. I've been up and down for the past few weeks and it's so frustrating.
Does anybody else feel this way?