I am Jane & i am 28 from Liverpool.
I have suffered from OCD, Anxiety & Panic Attacks for about 6 years now, but suffered from OCD since i was about 12, You know the annoying one, where you touch things, ehem, light switches etc.????
My first Panic Attack was about 6 years ago and was the most frightening. I actually thought i was dying (Heart Attack) I didn't die, but did spend about an hour shivering on the sofa, My sis was distraught and almost called an ambulance, I screamed please don't I did live in Anxious mode for the next 2 years after that, With Depression creeping in. I did help myself And thought i had been cured of it!
Just recently, Well most accurately, after watching my football team LFC win the carling cup on penalties, Totally painful - I did suffer an almighty Anxiety Attack, When i should really have been happy, I almost threw up, lay in bed shivering, same as the first i one i ever had and i felt like i had been battered the next day.
Since then - I have been feeling Anxious and worried about things but don't know what? That's the worse thing about my Anxiety is the worrying about things that are not important, as i am a natural worrier.
It started affecting my work, with light Headedness and chest pains. Yes i thought i was suffering a heart attack again!!!! I am happy to say that it has eased in the last few days - but for how long???????
I would love to be able to cure myself of this for good, as i live in worry that i will suffer another one at any moment, and will be left looking silly in work or out with people! Also i' am a mum and don't have time to be feeling spaced out and confused, And with how bad Liverpool fc played last season, i am not sure if ill be able to stop myself having another when the new season starts :/
I will add that I do live a busy life I Hardly Drink and do not smoke - and i am happy ( Now ) but i have suffered from Depression quite badly in the past that i had hit rock bottom.
Is there anyone else who's anxiety just hits them for NO apparent reason? When they feel their life is okay and going well?
I have learnt to deal with my feelings, By pushing my thoughts to the back of my head ( not sure if that's the best thing to do ) and telling myself there is nothing wrong with me when i feel those awful butterflies developing in my tummy :/ - but sometimes the feeling is so strong it just takes over and i feel like i am going throw up, or faint!
I would love to chat to people who feel the same as I and learn how they cope when they do feel like this, because although i have a wonderful family and partner - people don't really understand until they have had these feelings.
I live in hope that i may never suffer another Anxiety Attack again