Does anybody else feel like health is a luxury?

[venusofthenorth]

I feel like life hasn't been particularly easygoing on me. I was bullied for the entire duration of my education, it took me four years to get a job and once I moved away from my parents I had no kitchen and no money to make food from. I had to live off of friends and family for a while and it's only recently that I've been able to support myself. Somewhere along the line I frankly stopped giving a fuck about my health in general. I haven't cared about a single night's sleep or a single meal for years. People have consistently asked me to skip the gym just to go see them. I had no treatment for PCOS for the past six years. People keep calling me to go to work and it's only recently that I've started getting payed for showing up somewhere in spite of four hours of sleep having cried myself to bed the night before. And the second I'm parking my arse down with a book or a show or a game that I like people tell me I'm selfish and lazy and stupid for liking shit that keeps me distracted from feeling like shit. We need a whole new perspective on staying healthy, you guys, cause this is why we keep paying health care for people who never needed to get sick to start with.