Wisdom Teeth Anxiety

[DemureRose]

Ok I made a post regarding my wisdom teeth anxiety a couple weeks ago, but I'm doing it again. I've been feeling achy in my jaw the past two days and I'm assuming it's because of my wisdom teeth, which means I can no longer ignore them...ugh.

Now, anxiety about wisdom teeth is normal to my understanding, and there are multiple articles about how to overcome it. Problem is, I'm not anxious about the typical stuff.

I'm not anxious about the procedure. That's over quickly.

I'm not anxious about the pain. I've got a high pain tolerance and I mean there are ways to ease pain.

No, what I'm anxious about is being vulnerable. I have no idea why, but I have always had this extreme hate towards vulnerability. I remember being like 10-11 and sick, and begging my mom to leave me home alone because I didn't want her to take care of me. The question "How are you feeling?" with that sickly sweet sympathetic tone literally made me nauseous. That sounds dramatic but it's true.

How does this relate to wisdom teeth removal you might ask? Well, I'm 19...so I still live with my parents.

And I tried to tell them that I didn't want to be taken care of when I have it done, but it made them very angry. My mom literally got teary eyed and asked me why I don't let her take care of me. Like I understand that as a mom you want to take care of your children, but this isn't about her! It's about me and what will make this thing easier FOR ME.

I just want to be left alone for the first few days and get through the worst parts all alone. That would be amazing.

What makes this harder is it feels like I'm the only one worried about this part of the procedure. Everyone else seems worried about the pain or the procedure, so there are no resources to ease MY anxiety.

Am I the only one feels this way?