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[LexiLee]

Hi,

I’m new to this whole app and the idea of writing to strangers but I’m becoming desperate and I’m willing to do anything to make my life more manageable. Hi, I’m not sure where to start. I have anxiety from child molestation and a very violent rape I experienced a few years ago. I have also been in and out of abuse relationships. One where it was mostly physical that I got out of years ago but my current relationship can be very emotionally and mentally abusive at times. I also suffer from substance abuse disorder. I have been sober from alcohol for a year and clean from opioids for about a month and a half. My Anxiety has been acting up a lot recently since I went to treatment. While I was in treatment We talked about core issues and it brought up a lot of unwanted feelings and memories. I have been having anxiety attacks recently and not been able to function as an adult as well as I feel like I should.

My anxiety is debilitating at this point. Most days it’s hard for me to get out of bed little-lone take care of my 6 year old. I’m not the parent I want to be I just want to feel better and not let my past and my anxiety control my life.

I’m not sure what I’m looking for on here but I’m desperate and want to feel normal again. So I guess that’s what I’m hoping for.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

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First off let me start by saying I am so sorry for what you've been through. And you didn't deserve any of that. That type of situation can be hard to overcome but you can overcome. If you need someone to talk to privately i am willing to listen. I pray you have better days.

[Hotmami85]

Hello! I as well have been molested at the age of 5. I’m 35 today and still experiencing issues with it. But we need to know we are better then that! What happened to us doesn’t define who we are. We are smart, beautiful women! Don’t let the devil win. Try - healthy lifestyle better eating habits. Going outside more enjoying the sunshine. Taking you child out when you are feeling down doing something nice for your child. Finding Jesus or talking to a therapist a good one! I believe Jesus helped me. No one else can help us only we have the power to change our thoughts. I prayed to be healed and he healed me. Not right away. I still have bad days but not as bad as before when I couldn’t leave my house . Try cbd oil on your tongue or a edible cbd gummy when your nerves are everywhere. Find one that works for you! It took me months to find cbd gummies that actually worked some have to many added ingredients and don’t help well. Try watching inspirational videos on YouTube! The past is the past. It’s not who we are today. What happened to you was horrible but it’s not who you are your better then that. You can work past these demons it will take time. God bless you and your child

[pam4him]

So sorry you are struggling. You may want to take a deep breath, and consider which thing you most need to tackle. You've already made a good start with the addictions, so Kudos! on that. Perhaps some counseling, if you're not already doing that. Talking about some things can help with others. Journaling could also be helpful. Face each day one moment, one task at a time. Get up, brush hair and teeth, wake that awesome 6 yr old and start the day believing it's going to be ok. Prayers for peace, strength and guidance.