Thank you

[Motherof04]

I want to thank you all because I had no idea what's going on with me. It helps to hear that others are experiencing the same thing, but this feeling still scares me. My Mom keeps saying that it's acid reflux but that doesn't make sense to me, the menthol feeling is all through my body...it's even coming through my eyes. This being related to anxiety is something I never thought of but it makes sense. I always feel like I'm one breath away from a panic attack and I've thought of suicide since I was 12 and now I'm 38. I've been married for 21 years to a "good" husband and I have 4 healthy beautiful children, but I feel so hopeless. People always tell me how blessed I am to have my family but they have no idea about the pain I'm feeling inside. I just wish I could have the courage to end my mental anguish. I've never told anyone about my pain, this is my first time doing anything like this and it actually feels like a little release...like a small weight was taken off my chest. Thanks for listening.

[pink83737]

have you tried therapy?

[Motherof04 in reply to pink83737]

I've never gone to therapy. I've always been afraid that instead of really listening to me and trying to help me, they'll try and put me in a psych ward. I'm sure that I'm most likely overthinking things but the idea of that possibly happening makes me so nervous.

[Ksmithfield]

Hello- I totally understand the weird menthol sensation, and I also have acid reflux but that’s definitely not the cause! Now I’m not a doctor and would advise a basic bloodwork panel and just voice your concerns to you doc about what you think is wrong currently and also your mental health. I understand that it’s very difficult, and thankfully I’ve had support since I was young. Only do what makes you comfortable- but sometimes getting help isn’t a bad thing, you don’t have to suffer in silence like so many of us do! It’s always an ongoing battle- but I promise you that you are strong, and you will get through it! I also get how people assume you’re okay because you have a good life. What I like to say is that I’m extremely grateful for everything that I have- but everybody has their own problems, and nobody truly knows what someone is going through. Sometimes the happiest people on the outside are the unhappiest on the inside, which is sad but unfortunately true. You definitely will get through this- I support you, and everybody else does on this forum. I’m also sure your family will too, and you can get through this If you need someone to talk to, I’m always here.

[Motherof04 in reply to Ksmithfield]

Thank you for your kind and encouraging words. You have no idea how many times I've read your reply when I was feeling really bad. I'm here if you ever want to talk as well.

[Ksmithfield in reply to Motherof04]

No problem! And thank you so much! I’m always here

[Arlene99]

Thanks for sharing with us. This is a great group for expressing ur feelings & there is always someone who will respond to u giving u reassurance. Never feel alone ( as u sometimes do when u have anxiety). I find when I come onto the forum & actually type how I’m feeling at the time helps me too. If u wish to private message me I happy to talk to u.....remember we have all been there xx

[Motherof04 in reply to Arlene99]

Thank you!🤗

[kvolm2016]

Just wanted to add my welcome and to encourage you to talk frequently and honestly here. We are all here to support and encourage one another! I'm sorry that this has been such a long and unrelenting journey for you. If you feel like sharing this info, are you working with any medical professionals for any of the physical or mental health concerns?