Taking a bit more time off work

I’m a bit disappointed in myself — I asked work for a bit more time to recoup from these horrible effects from getting off Zoloft. I had my ticket booked and everything but I woke up this morning and my head just hurt and also felt weird.

All I really want is to just be able to walk around without feeling weird. I’m so mad at myself for letting anxiety get the better part of me for months. I don’t think I’ll ever let myself get agoraphobic again, like I was.

I had a mostly good day yesterday... I got to be in the woods for a bit. I got a random panic attack in when watching a movie (I’ve never experienced this before) and had a random crying fit. I also got so lightheaded outside that I thought I was going to faint.

I just can’t picture being in NYC alone feeling like how I did surrounded by people yesterday.

I had a really nice chat yesterday and a bunch of laughs. Mood wise I feel close to normal this AM but mentally, I feel spacey still. Physically? My head hurts.

Also, I had that weird spacey head feeling wash over me last night. It’s pretty scary when it happens but I’m hoping it won’t continue!

Mood swings are still kind of there. It’s like everything sets me off and then it feels almost ridiculous after the fact.

[art62grammie]

I have been on Zoloft for over 6 years now. I only take 75mg daily. I went cold turkey without my doctor knowing. I was very sick wanted to throw up and all. Headaches were horrible. Even if your doctor has advised you to stop gradually. It will take time. I would never go cold turkey.

[Hidden in reply to art62grammie]

Oh wow. Yeah, cold turkey is never a good idea. A doctor actually told me to do that since I had adverse effects and was on it for 2 weeks. I tapered for two more weeks (25mg to 12.5 to 12.5 every other day). I’m surprised I still don’t feel 100% after 3 weeks!

[art62grammie in reply to Hidden]

I will be on 75mg for the rest of my life I am sure. At my age close to 60 it is what kept me from dying with 40 years of Anorexia.