Rebattling anxiety for 2nd time

[AnxietyMan41]

For those of us who have gotten through this once and to have it come back like a savage after nearly 20 years is brutal. Can I make it past this again or is my life going to be another long battle. I dont think I can handle another bout of this it's so horriable. No want to do anything. Everything gets my anxieties up. Only peace is in the evenings. In the evenings I feel like I can beat this but the days are so horrid. Pacing floors smoking cigs. Looking like a zombie to my family. It brings them all down. I used to be the funny person. The person of reason they could all come to. Now I'm just a shadow of who I was. I'm so discouraged. I pray jesus will help me get the job I applied for. This would be a major step in my healing. That and getting some health concerns looked I to and with good news on them will surely be another major stepping stone to my healing. Once those are taken care of I will slowly regain myself with any luck. The struggles are tough. I feel like I'll never make it out of this. I just need some good things to happen in my life. I need to be surrounded by positivity to kill the negative. I contribute my first healing to meeting my wife. Love and endorphins took over my anxiety. I just wish I could live with peace while not on medication. I took an ativan a little but ago and it has given me some reliefe but it really just takes the edge off. But I'm very thankful for that. Using a little more than I'm prescribed but going to see a new doctor tomorrow and hopefully he will up my current meds or find me something else that will get me through until life turns around. I just need some peace in my life. Anyone else like this

[Icanbeathis2016]

Hello again. I know the discouragement you are feeling. I have risen and fallen and risen and fallen with this and yes let me tell you, it is defeated feeling. And feeling like will I make it out this go round. I can say, I'd bet my last penny that being in love and having a wife would indeed abate the anxiety much. You have the ultimate distraction with love and perfect love casts out fears. Says the Bible(the good book).

I wish I could be as receptive to wanting to keep up with meds. I tried it that once about 2 years back for 45 days and quit and never tried again. At least you are willing to give meds a chance. So many times I wonder if I'm making my journey worse by not giving meds a chance. We all are probably fighting for peace now. I didn't realize how a peace of mind was so crucial to life until anxiety robbed me for it. Now I would give anything to have it back. And also I agree we need to surround ourselves with positivity. Protect our energy. And I so understand you when you say, you just need something good to happen, some good things to come and it will be the ultimate "pick me up" to kick start that motivation and momentum. I utterly understand.

I wish us the best.

[AnxietyMan41 in reply to Icanbeathis2016]

Thank you so kindly. I needed that. I was really feeling alone. I appreciate you words of reply. I visit this app often. It's so rewarding to know there are people listening and willing to provide a reply. Bless you

[Icanbeathis2016 in reply to AnxietyMan41]

This forum is definitely a big help when wanting reassurance and just wanting to know you are not alone.

Thank you and bless you.

[Maxyz3]

I am on my 2nd round with anxiety, last summer i was stressing about health condition ..i begged my dr. For lorazapam as i had a meltdown in his office as he didnt want to give me any he said i would never be able to get off them. He gave me them.i proved him wrong and tapered off in 3 months. No anxiety because i learne to kick feR and worry to the curb. Now im back with another worry situation actually 2 worry items. I will see a counselor Monday to see if i can get help this time .

[Maxyz3 in reply to Maxyz3]

Lorazapam got me better ast summer. I didnt abuse it..i took 1 0.5

In the morning, once in a while during the day i took a second dose depending on my anxiety level. At the end i tapered to 1/2 in the mornings for 1 wk. If you dont abuse it you will be better for getting off.