Irrational intrusive worrying

[sajax]

I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD related to previous job and now have taken all the worries with new job. I have suffered with GAD entire life. I’m constantly getting awful thoughts about the next project or thing I’ll have to do. Constantly thinking I won’t be able to do the work, I’ll look bad to my boss, I’m not good enough for the job, they will soon realize they shouldn’t have hired me.

I haven’t had any negative feedback yet but I find the job is challenging. Does anyone deal with this? Any strategies that work?im seeing a therapist and on meds but I’m about to start something new project and I literally feel sick. So scary to feel like I’ll never get better

[ChicagoGirl1961]

I've had times where I wonder if I can continue to do what is required on the job and that it will all come crashing down. This may or may not work for you, but what brings me peace is I know that the worst thing that could happen is I would lose my job. So what? If that happens I'm ok with it. We can always find another job even if it takes a while. I just go to work and do my best, and that's all I can ask of myself. And worrying about it all crashing down is really without merit for me, probably you too, because we know our jobs and how to do them.

[sajax in reply to ChicagoGirl1961]

Thank u for responding. Im terrified I wouldn’t be able to take losing my job because I wasn’t good enough. Fear getting a job after that but I know this is something I must let go of. This job hasn’t been very repetitive so I’m always thinking the worst is about to come. It’s so frustrating ruining my Sunday ruminating

[ChicagoGirl1961 in reply to sajax]

Go to work and do your best. It will likely be just fine, and if at some point it doesn't work out you'll move on and also be just fine.

[sajax]

I’m way too hard on myself