Scared of reality

[Matt3013]

Hey. I haven’t posted on here for a while.... I check in most days and se how people are doing.,

I am at a real cross road in my life... for anyone who read my first posts or have spoken to me you’ll know I was in the emergency services and involved in a fatal collision.

I have been medically retired because of PTSD and anxiety and have been on sertraline for nearly 5 years.

I have made improvements, big ones and I can see that but I am at a stage where I want to find some form of work and this scares me.

I want to be the same as I was before, strong, resilient, and reliable but I know it’s so few and far between that I can actually do those things.

More often than not I now find daily tasks can be too much and stress me out...

The truth is I am not ready for reality as it scares me

[Miss-P74]

You are Strong . You are resilient. You are reliable. All those things are still YOU. Just hidden a little. Reach in and bring them out again. 🖤

[Usagold]

Ya know, Matt, it obviously takes time. I know how you feel. I was in awful shape, crippled by anxiety, had to quit my teaching job, stopped working out, I couldn’t even walk up stairs without panting and heart racing. Well, I have gradually overcome anxiety and I feel great now, better than ever mentally. I am working PT again, work out some, but I am STILL not as strong as I was before. I get tired (like major fatigue) much easier and can’t handle stress like I used to. You might be like me where you haven’t plateaued or regressed, but the forward progress is just very slow. I’m just thankful to be this much better, and I am hoping, and expecting, to eventually get back to baseline physically. Stay positive.

[Agora1 in reply to Usagold]

Usagold, so glad to hear you are moving forward. xx

[Beevee]

If you go towards those places and situations you fear, and face them, your anxieties will disappear.

I suffered constant severe stress and fear on a daily basis for quite some time (not to mention feelings of paranoia and a whole host of other negative thought patterns and feelings) but continued to work. I would go into work feeling petrified and found it difficult to cope and focus on the job. But i did it. I learned that although unpleasant, the thoughts and feelings were there to try and protect me and by facing and accepting them all and not doing anything to try and change it, they would melt away. I faced all those fears and they eventually disappeared. Slowly, my mind and body recovered and all those thoughts and feelings disappeared. You can do this too. Just a case of having the courage to do it. If i can, you can too. We all have the courage to recover and is not reserved exclusively for people with super human powers. Anxiety is a great confidence trickster but you can call its bluff by moving forward in your life and taking your anxieties with you. This will force 'it' to show its hand and will find ' it' has been bluffing you all along.

[lorianxiety in reply to Beevee]

im so glad you have recovered Beevee,did it take some time,Im hoping that my confidence will return and being reliant still on diazepam,is no longer working and would like to cure myself of these feelings as well as my dependency.