i have just joined this site! although i am glad i can relate to some people on here i am soooo scared.... i thought this would be a short period of my life ..... but it not stopping!! people on here seem to have had it years!! i have struggled for a few years with " bouts" of anxiety but they always gone away! i never knew what set me off...... but for the last 7 months it has been awful.... i think of death, of me dying, then i'm scared of death, what is after death? but i don't want to die! i have 3 beautiful children.... i love them dearly and want to be here for them..... i imagine dying and leaving them! it makes me so sad! i feel hopeless and helpless! i feel irrtated a lot of the time! i feel so sad.. upset and angry i am not the person i was! i have stopped going out... i only go to limited places! i had a camera put up my nose the other week cos i was convinced something was stuck in my throat!! how can any one expect to be able to live like this.... the problem is i don't want to live like this??? what do i do??? its the last thing on my mind when i go bed!! the first thing i think of soon as i wake!! why is this happening to me??? why me??? all the horrible people out there... that get on with there lifes.... why can't i live mine???