Darkest before the dawn

I don't want to jinx myself, but I think there is light at the end of the tunnel. Dr. Weekes speaks to setbacks and that the worse setback of all may come just when a major breakthrough is about to occur.

For the last few days my episodes of anxiety and panic, along with intrusive thoughts, have been very severe...about as bad as I've ever experienced. Even when I feel like I'm about to crack in two or faint away, I detach from the feelings, repeat to myself that "I accept these feelings and thoughts" and I wait. There will be a calming down, followed by an even more intense episode of anxiety/panic. I repeat the acceptance mantra. Then there is another calming down. There are times when I hear myself saying, "I don't care. Do your worst if you will, I've got other things to do".

I'm not giving up. I'm not surrendering. I am pushing through, because I believe that peace and calm is on the other side. I'm seeing how acceptance works and I'm thankful to share this with all of you.

Bat.

[Meredyn]

Thank you so much for sharing, Bat. I'm right there beside you, waiting for the dawn. Be strong.

[Hidden in reply to Meredyn]

Thanks! Glad to have you beside me!

[Hidden]

I'm reading Dr. Weekes, also, and it's really helping.

Best wishes and thanks for sharing!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! Stay the course!

[clayjars]

I think it's only natural to be fearful and anxious as human beings. After all, we are not even "mere specks" in light of the entire ever-expanding universe. This universe is uncontrollable and we are vulnerable to its whim. But what has helped calm my fears and anxiety is knowing the God who holds this universe in His hands. He determines the number of the stars and knows them each by name. This God knows my needs and loves me. He promises to be with me and to never leave me. So, each morning when I wake up, I remember His promises to me, and I rise to do what needs doing that day. Big things, little things, mundane, or extraordinary... I rise and take small steps, sometimes with confidence, sometimes with lots of trepidation, but trusting that somehow, someway, God will see me through. So far, I'm still here and my confidence in God is getting stronger than my fear.

"Do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will give you strength, and for sure I will help you. Yes, I will hold you up with My right hand that is right and good."

[missey13]

Can you tell me which of Dr Weekes books you have? I have googled and there are a few, I'm not sure which one is best to get x

[Hidden in reply to missey13]

There are a few out there, but the one I like best is called "Essential Help For Your Nerves" and the isbn 9780722540138. It compiles two of her books and gives the most thorough rendering of her method. Also, try some of her works on Audible. It's nice to have the spoken version to hear when your driving or walking.

[missey13 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you x