I don't want to jinx myself, but I think there is light at the end of the tunnel. Dr. Weekes speaks to setbacks and that the worse setback of all may come just when a major breakthrough is about to occur.
For the last few days my episodes of anxiety and panic, along with intrusive thoughts, have been very severe...about as bad as I've ever experienced. Even when I feel like I'm about to crack in two or faint away, I detach from the feelings, repeat to myself that "I accept these feelings and thoughts" and I wait. There will be a calming down, followed by an even more intense episode of anxiety/panic. I repeat the acceptance mantra. Then there is another calming down. There are times when I hear myself saying, "I don't care. Do your worst if you will, I've got other things to do".
I'm not giving up. I'm not surrendering. I am pushing through, because I believe that peace and calm is on the other side. I'm seeing how acceptance works and I'm thankful to share this with all of you.